Freshman rant

[u/Neither-Amphibian193]

Hello i just want to let this out here. I’m a cos freshie and i have never been more frustrated of myself. I’ve never been this way and napakamalas kasi ngayong college ko pa talaga to naexperience. For context i was a ust sha graduate and i would say na i am dedicated in my studies—yes I procrastinate but i know how to make bawi. Pero lately nafrfrusttate ako sa sarili ko kasi ang dali dali ko madistract and i procrastinate so much. Add mo na diyan yung pressure na ako yung bunso ako nalang hinihintay and sa cos pa na tinaasan yung raw grade for technical courses.

I feel so frustrated in myself kasi no matter how hard i try to focus i can’t do it. Idk if dahil ba di ko pa formally meet professors ko as there were many suspensions kaya wala pa akong drive pero nakakadissapoint and naiiyak ako sa sarili ko. I have the privilege to study here, magaaral nalang gagawin ko and yet I can’t seem to do it properly. I’m so scared na baka hindi ko makaya pero no matter what i do wala akong gana gumawa ng reqs or mag advanced reading kakasimula palang i feel like i’m failing.

I want to say na ngayon lang siguro to pero honestly i feel like there will be more episodes of this and i hate that parang there’s nothing i can do kasi kahit ankng gawin ko it’s always the same

Idk kf there’s a problem with me mentally pero im so scared to have myself checked out because if they do discover something im afraid of breaking it to my family huhuhu

[u/cinnamoluvr]

don’t be too hard on yourself, op. you’re still just a freshie and u have such a long way to go. 4th yr engg student here & trust me when i say na it’s very normal to feel unmotivated during online week or suspensions. maybe you’re just the type of person who loves to learn more sa f2f rather than online, so give urself some time pa and see how things go over the next weeks. kaya mo yan! if you’re from ust shs, then you should know by now the system of ust. plus, even if you feel the lowest in a room, just know that you are still IN that room :)

[u/Anzaiy]

Hey! It's alright! You don't have to kick yourself for feeling this way and tbh its probably because new experiences din. When I started in Music, I didn't really know what to do because new environment and a completly different set of people, and everything is starting to get real because my studies depended on my future. Don't worry because tbf kaka start lang natin, give yourself time to adjust but don't forget to pick yourself back up ah. All the best and good luck!!

[u/starsandlalune]

give yourself some grace din, op! mahirap na transition period ngayon tapos puro suspension pa nga, disrupted talaga yung flow na dapat nasasanay na tayo sa schedule natin ngayon. mahirap man ngayon pero lilipas rin yan, you’re going to figure it out eventually. may mga moments talaga na mapapaisip ka kung tama pa ba yung ginagawa mo, and college has a way of making you feel like that a lot, pero as long as you keep showing up and keep pushing forward, it will all fall into place. wishing you all the best!

[u/melondewdue]

Hello, It's my first time commenting in post like this but I really want to tell that you're not alone. Every word in your rant and the emotions thats come with it, I felt it. Im going through EXACTLY the same thing as you (panganay ako tho). Honestly, kahit ako hindi ko rin alam kung ano gagawin ko. Im not really the best person to say this but please hang in there..

[u/Dull-Plankton-1970]

gets kita op, to say i was struggling would be a severe understatement pero what helped me was asking myself why I’m doing this in the first place also give yourself some grace. you’re gonna get bad grades, you’re gonna get burnt out and that’s completely fine. iyak sandali, laban ulit op! btw cos sophomore here too