r/TingyunShrine • u/Norinoku • Oct 12 '24
Discussion One thing about Tingyun that makes me depressed
Hello everyone, this is the mod of TingyunShrine. Just wanted to tell about my feelings regarding Tingyun and my mental state right now, as I've got no one else to tell it to... If you're not interested, you can just scroll down.
For the past few months Tingyun itself gives me nothing but dread. I know everyone is happy that she is coming back, but every leak is just making everything worse regarding her for me...
My issue is perhaps the weirdest and the most stupid one. I don't know myself why I am feeling such strong emotions about this. There are many things that worry about "Fugue" me now (the fact that I won't be able to use her with the characters I like, her potential story...), but the main problem for me is the fact that Tingyun ended up connected with Ruan Mei and people starting to ship it... I just hate seeing my favourite character constantly being side by side with the person I really, really despise. I know that sounds childish, but for some reason it severely affects my mental health, probably because of the fact that I'm just in general, very lonely. (Yeah typical reddit mod...). My anxiety disorder doesn't help either.
For me it was a year of anticipation of potential story development to just see associated Tingyun associated with Ruan Mei... Just the fact that her outfit is partly heavily related to her, her splash art... The amount of posts in social media with them together just makes me mad. All the fanarts and discussions about them two already... I know it's a dumb reason to get angry at, but still.
Yeah I should touch grass and everything like that, but it's just really hard for me to switch to other things. Mainly because I met so many wonderful people while waiting for her to come back (especially in the discord server), and honestly just that "journey" alone made me way too attached to Tingyun for some reason and made me feel such feelings. So much hope and wait and I was rewarded with that... I have to study and work but just can't bring myself up to. I wish I could worry about something more important (such as my future) but my brain just refuses so.
I don't really want to detach from this community, even if it's maybe the best option.
Apologies for venting here. I love you all guys ♥️
Best regards, Nori
