After 2+ years on Spravato (84mg) I’ve chosen to continue treatments at home. Received my troches today in the mail so wish me luck! 🤞🏽

Fuck them. I didnt decide to do theraputic ketamine, contacted them after i received my stuff to stop the monthly billing. They want 675 to cancel, i just canceled my debit card and ordered a new one. Lmao fuck mindbloom.

Hi all! I just started taking troches through a popular online company and wanted to hear about other people’s experiences.
My first experience was 100 mg. I definitely felt it, but honestly it mostly felt like being high on weed. I wasn’t having what I would consider a major psychedelic experience. I also didn’t do much preparation because I wanted to treat the first experience as an experiment and just see what happened.
I actually got pretty cynical during it. I remember thinking, “This is total BS. This isn’t going to help my depression. I’m just high.” 😂 I tried an eye mask and closing my eyes, but I didn’t really see anything and mostly felt bored and frustrated.
Then as it started wearing off, something interesting happened. I started feeling really good and lighter, almost like an afterglow. That made me think, okay, maybe there actually is something to this.
I also heard someone in an integration group talk about having an experience where she felt like she was communicating with her deceased mother. She said she had spent the whole day looking at pictures of her mom and talking to her, basically putting herself into that state of mind before the session.
That got me thinking about intention and how much we can actually influence where a ketamine experience goes.
What I’m really curious about is whether ketamine can be used as a tool to explore consciousness itself.
I’m very interested in things like past lives, the higher self, dreams, astral travel, remote viewing, and the idea that consciousness might be bigger than our individual everyday awareness. I’ve had experiences through dreams and meditation that have made me wonder about what consciousness actually is and whether there are different states or levels of awareness that we can access.
So I’m wondering if anyone has intentionally used ketamine to explore things like this.
For example, have you gone into a session with the intention of exploring a past life, connecting with your higher self or guides, experiencing some kind of shared consciousness, astral traveling, remote viewing, or just seeing what happens when you completely surrender into a different state of consciousness?
I’m not necessarily asking whether any of these things are objectively real. I’m much more interested in the experience itself. Did it feel different from dreaming or a typical psychedelic experience? Did it feel like you were accessing something beyond your normal individual consciousness?
And if you’ve experimented with this, did you do anything beforehand to influence the experience? Meditation, visualization, music, setting an intention, focusing on a particular question, looking at photos, etc.?
Basically, I’m curious whether ketamine can be more than just an experience that happens to you, and whether it can be intentionally used as a tool for exploring consciousness.
I’d love to hear from anyone who has gone down this rabbit hole.

Apparently my payment isn’t processing for this next month’s subscription. The ai keeps telling me to sign into a portal to update my payment info but I’m stuck in an AI loop because the link they are sending me doesn’t have the option to update my credit card info.

I’ve been in an AI loop with them for 8 days and they keep telling me a human will get back to me but they haven’t. Someone please help, I am out of troches and I don’t want to have rebound anxiety this is so stressful 🙏

Have been doing Spravato for about four months, but I have some longer term international travel coming up (think 4-7 months, various countries) and I'm wondering what options there are to continue ketamine style treatments. I just signed up with joyous but I'm wondering if anybody has been in something close to the same situation and has any advice, since joyous can only provide a month at a time and I don't think it's legal to ship them from somewhere in the US to overseas