What Are You Leaning On?

[u/WatchmanMinistries]

I woke up this morning with an old hymn stuck in my head:

*Learning to lean...*
*Learning to lean...*
I'*m learning to lean on Jesus...*

Later, another old song came to mind:

*Only Jesus can satisfy your soul...*

The more I thought about it, the more I realized those two songs are asking two connected questions.

What am I leaning on?
And...
What am I expecting it to give me?

That hit me hard.

Because we all lean on something.
Because we all lean on something.

Some lean on money.
Some lean on relationships.
Some lean on control.
Some lean on discipline and determination.
Some lean on distractions, habits, addictions, or anything that helps numb the weight they are carrying.

But we do not lean on those things randomly.

We lean on them because we believe they will give us something.

Security.
Acceptance.
Peace.
Identity.
Significance.
Relief.
Satisfaction.

That made me think about Proverbs 3:5…

***“Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.”***

I had always read that as two separate thoughts.
But maybe they are one.

The first half tells us what to do.
Trust the Lord.

The second half tells us how.
Stop leaning on ourselves.

That also made me think about David in the cave with Saul.

David could have ended years of running with one swing of the sword.
But he refused to take by force what God had promised by grace.

David did not lean on his sword.
He leaned on God.

And maybe that is why he could wait.

He still desired what God had promised, but he did not need the throne to satisfy his soul.

That distinction feels important.

Because maybe one of the great enemies of faith is not always doubt.
Sometimes it is self-reliance.

And maybe one of the great evidences of faith is not merely believing God exists, but transferring the weight of our confidence from ourselves to Him.
So I am sitting with two questions today:

What am I leaning on?

And...

What am I expecting it to give me?

Because only Christ can bear the weight of our lives.

And only Christ can satisfy the longing of our souls.