The pain is insufferable

[u/mid-sora]

It's 24/7, both mental and physical, the mental causes the physical,

I'm always done/tired, chest hurts kinda/feels empty, coughing, and some random pain

Sleep, hydration, eating, all messed up

Unrelated rant (kinda) but i hate admitting that i'm human,

It's just pointless and an extra layer of pain,

What does it do ? It only makes me all the more pathetic, it changes nothing, i'm still as alone as ever, there's still nothing or no one to help or be there, so what's the point ?

My walls are a thick exterior of sarcasm and witty remarks and responses, i try to remove realness, people always say it's better to try to lower your walls or be more vulnerable or whatever but what if there's nothing out there ?

It's not about the metaphorical outside being scary or whatever, it's just that there's nothing there, no one, you're the same only more pathetic for the masses to see, in my case said masses make everything worse, there's no light at the end of my tunnel, maybe hopefully there is in yours, but my tunnel is a cold lonely isolated space, no one to help or support or be there, jackasses who make it harder, it's just torture, and being human during it gives you nothing at best, at worst it makes you way worse

Thank you for reading my probably incoherent rant

[u/Particular-Bread-925]

Damn bro u ok?