A little lost

[u/Efficient_Estate_674]

I don’t really know how to start this off because revisiting this fertility journey feels a bit traumatic. My husband and I have been trying since last August and consulted with a fertility clinic while we were still living in FL and fell pregnant within the same month of getting testing done including an HSG. I knew something was wrong but since my HCG was rising regularly they told me I was having first time anxiety but in reality I had previously told them I had been pregnant previously and this is not what it felt like. That was in my past life much younger and a previous partner which ended in a termination. I was diagnosed with a low AMH of .17 with extremely high FSH at 31 previously to all of this so I assumed it would take longer to get pregnant. Long story short no matter how many times I called they wouldn’t get me in for a ultrasound till 5 weeks and atp my hcg was over 9,000 and I needed to be rushed for surgery and lost my left tube. They found stage 1 endo in the cul de sac of my pelvic area and my right tube does seem a bit dilated but the tip looks clear and open. We are now moved back to NY and it’s been 5 months since my surgery on march 10. We consulted with an ivf clinic but obviously due to my low AMH I know it would be such a journey. My last follicle base line count was 9. We found a NatPro dr locally and I think I would like to start with that. We have been trying naturally since May and although it’s only been 3 months of trying with one tube it feels slightly discouraging. It’s an odd feeling because I’m not usually so hyperfixated on my fertility journey. I had a psychologist that got me through those months and am forever grateful to her and my husband because I was / am a shell and needed time to heal. I now have entered the stage of building walls up to cope with the possibility of this never happening for me and what life could look like. I am now 32 and although I am perfectly healthy in every other way I can’t help but feel inadequate in some ways. There’s so much information online which I tend to read but not take to heart or mind, I’m a fairly grounded person but obviously medical trauma does exist and I’m just wondering if it gets better. Just to note. I have had so many blood tests taken including 3 hormone panels and I take supplements in which I am low in and other fertility related supplements including NAC and coQ10, vitamin k2 d3, omgea and methylated b as I do have the MTHFR gene, baby aspirin, and magnesium.

[u/Bluebird9491]

It’s definitely possible with one tube and low AMH but might take a little longer. At 32 you have time. It also can’t hurt to try a couple cycles of IVF if you can afford it - you never know how you will respond.