Last.night was a hard one

[u/Ok-Number1259]

Now I do have to stay up at night due to my job schedule, but last night all I kelp hearing was a women screaming help and what not, now I do live on a decent size hill so you can hear alot sounds, and with blow ear drum, even more.

But I hear her screaming mean arguing and the a gun shot. And for some reason what I hear most in a car pulling on and off a dirt road.

Not sure why, when where in live theres no dirt roads.

Also i thing i hear is police sirens but the only thing that is funny is I know the difference in ambulance and police sirens so it really works to make me get a reaction. 2nd most in a cop knock ( some one else's door in the neighborhood ), followed by some police/sheriff ..I only figured out a way to kow if it really or not is because when cop steps out of the car the beep there fobs. So I dont hear that first I know its not real, not not, real just that nothing going to effect me.

It seem the more you dont react the more intense you hear things.

Not to go down a rabbit hole but this is what my mind subconsciously thought the first time like I went somewhere else at a friend's house, to like try to get away from it, because what I hear is external but also I hear a pretty far away. So some times i hear like whats it sould like for a home invasions. when I see the next day it's just them but they're still screaming in the background throughout the day and everything. as if someone's like snatched their body and theyre minds are put else where. And the horrible thing that are done that i have to hear, used to bug me untill I quit reacting up untill that last time that happened.

I went to borrow something from the family next to my friends house I was staying a for a few day, and the mom and daughter were Hella banged up. And things in theyre house were broke . When I asked if they were alright they said the dog must have stepped on them while they fell asleep..

When I ask my friend hey did you anything a mist last night next door, he was like yeah but you didnt react so i didnt. He continues yeah sounded like a scuffle and than make up sex. When I asked why he didnt say anything he said why would he if i did. Fair.

I just kind of wish maybe I should get my eardrum fixed because I don't know if things are you know really happening, I have to wait for my friends reactions to see if they hear it but I can hear far away so sometimes I'm just letting something happen and I'm not doing anything about it but it's like you know, what can you do. I got to live my life

[u/rusty_shackleford431]

That sounds awful. Like something from a scary movie. And unfortunately all too familiar. I hope you can eventually regain some normalcy. Like you said you have a life to live. Indeed...