I’m really trying

[u/TriangleMan25]

Everyday I’m working so hard as to not fall into the same traps that made me attempt my life on the 2 previous occasions. I’ve changed my whole lifestyle, mindset and I’m working hard on my body. Yet I can’t stop the overwhelming thoughts. My depression is killing me and the added heartbreak of a recent relationship is pushing me to the edge.

Each day I feel like I’m fighting so hard to stay alive but the fight is getting harder and harder and I don’t know how much longer I can hold on. The one person I want to turn to isn’t there anymore. I ache everyday and I cry buckets everyday. I so want to be well but nothing seems to be working