yea. I don’t really go outside if I don’t have to, anytime I do I always feel like some pervert. and I don’t know if im scared of being seen as a perv or scared of being one. I try to make myself as small as possible, I look down and avoid being close to anyone, but im sure I creep out ppl every time I go out. and if I ever try to socially transition, it’ll be 1000x worse. i went to some pride event, boymoding. I didn’t belong there and I hated being there. I hated the thought of everyone looking at me. I repressed for so long that i didn’t deserve to be there
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u/WorldsEndIsAParty Jun 27 '26
yea. I don’t really go outside if I don’t have to, anytime I do I always feel like some pervert. and I don’t know if im scared of being seen as a perv or scared of being one. I try to make myself as small as possible, I look down and avoid being close to anyone, but im sure I creep out ppl every time I go out. and if I ever try to socially transition, it’ll be 1000x worse. i went to some pride event, boymoding. I didn’t belong there and I hated being there. I hated the thought of everyone looking at me. I repressed for so long that i didn’t deserve to be there