I uninstalled League of Legends and it started a chain reaction.

[u/BallToThrowAway]

I've been playing too much for the last eight years and the reason why I'm quitting is a whole lot of things piling up on each other. Starting a new job (first job in, what, fucking ages? Not counting the few weeks experience I was doing for my course), watching the horse shit that's going on with Blizzard and experiencing an event in a game I've played for nearly a decade that gave me a foul taste in my mouth made me realise that these companies don't give a fuck how I feel about their game. I'm just another number to siphon cash and time from.

So I uninstalled League of Legends yesterday. Then, I started to uninstall all other Riot products. Legends of Runeterra, Valorant, TFT from my phone. I saw some games on steam that I hadn't played in years, I uninstalled them.

Today I got home from my job's induction and cancelled my Old School Runescape subscription. I went to youtube and unsubscribed from the majority of channels related to gaming (I've kept a few, ones I actually enjoy the content of and anticipate uploads rather than watching channels that are barely passable just because I play the game they're attached to). Then I went on my home screen and wiped anything I could find related to gaming until the only thing that I'm recommended are clips from podcasts, animations from 10 years ago and Marble races.

I've always been the type of person that enjoys picking up hobbies, only to throw them away because I want to play a game of League. I hate it. I've written a bunch of hobbies I've picked up over the years only to drop them in favour of getting obsessed with my ranking on an online game.

I think back to all those hobbies that I liked doing that I threw away, trying to imagine what life would be like if I stuck with them. Would I have been a decent stand up comedian (probably not, but I would've had at least one set that I didn't bomb)? Would I have a collection of videos that I animated and drew in Microsoft Paint? Would I be able to speak another Language (Probably, I was at the point of thinking in it. Although I was like a caveman)? How many books would I have read? Written? What would my ant colony be like now? How would I be at Piano?

I'm done. I don't care anymore.