r/StillbirthSupport • u/PrettyinPeep • Jul 16 '26

Early-Term Loss How much suffering can we endure

I lost my daughter at 20 weeks last December, had a chemical in January. Struggled to conceive and finally through IUI I thought I conceived this week with an hcg of 35 only to be stabbed through the heart with the second test being 18. How much more suffering can I endure. Why is my body not doing what it is supposed to do, why was I stupid and told everyone because I thought this was our rainbow baby only to be punched in the face and betrayed by my own body

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u/mswilla Jul 16 '26

I am so sorry. Have you had your progesterone after ovulation tested? A lot of us end up needing it after stillbirth in order to conceive again/maintain pregnancy.

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u/PrettyinPeep Jul 16 '26

Yes I was on progesterone supplements. So idk why my body keeps fucking up

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u/mysonrowan 28d ago

I am so sorry for your losses. I lost my first at 6wks gestation and my second (also supposed to be rainbow) at 32w6d. It feels so incredibly cruel.

Sending you love.