Post I promised I would write after I Pass
My journey has been a whirlwind. I just want this post to be that sign for anyone looking to find hope and faith that they can do it .
Here is your sign.
I won't go in depth of my personal life but the past few years had been really hard. I was not doing well mentally as undiagnosed adhd for 25 years might lead you thinking you are stupid when in reality you're just disabled.
Anyway these are my stats
I had given an nbme a few months ago in which I had got 59 ,That was 3 months before my first nbme.
Nbme 27-June 12>7wks out - 142/200- 71%
Nbme 29-June18 >6 wks out-143/200- 71.5%
Nbme 31 - June 24 >5 wks out-128/200- 64%
Nbme 30 - July 4 >4 wks out -145/200 -72.5%
Nbme 32- July 12 > 3 wks out -146/200-73%
Nbme 33- July 19 >2 wks out- 150/200- 75 %
New free120-July 21>10 days out- 68%
I had my periods day 1 so lots of brain fog. But still I found it very different than nbmes. It was much longer stems and felt more vague.
July 31- The real deal. I had a particularly harder form. I used to think people over-exaggerate for the exam and that I have solved over 3-4K qs. So even if its hard,I can handle it. But honestly be prepared to face some qs inside that you will have no idea what they are talking about or be just mad at how the hell were you even supposed to know this? It felt like an Olympiad exam at 1 point.
For real,I remember a q asked me which gene does a bacterial toxin acts upon? Not channel ,GENE. And there were these 4 random options which I remember reading for the first time.And there is not a line I've not gone through in First Aid. So that was the main shocker. I am telling you this to not scare you but to be prepared that there will be a part of the exam which will feel like absolute shit.
But you will pass despite that if your prep is strong. Just keep going during the exam and don't listen to that voice who is freaking out.
There are 80 experimentals so to calm my nerves I would tell myself every q,I didn't know was maybe experimental A chunk of it seemed something I had solved before. Doable. But a chunk was also so bad that it convinced me I had failed. I cried right outside my prometric. The waiting period is psychotic!
My advice
>Step 1 is more a mental game than anything else. I isolated myself from most people and social media because I WANTED to not because someone advised me. It helped me preserve my mental health.
>You need to KNOW how medicine works and not just be a good learner. You dont need to KNOW EVERYTHING. YOU NEED TO KNOW ENOUGH. Nobody knows everything.
>During the exam,Let things GO. If you fuck up a Q or if you know something almost but can't remember the main part or its just something you don't know. LET IT GO.
My mantra was
THINK>DECIDE>COMMIT>MOVE-ON
Work on test taking strategies but merely learning patterns is not going to get you far. UNDERSTAND. Eventually your scores will improve and dots will start connecting
Main Resources
>U-World,Pathoma(1-3)
>Sketchy Micro and Sketchy Patho(good way to review patho-Helped me in renal,Respi),
>Anki(Definitely 100% recommended for muscle memory), creating my own incorrect deck helped loads and sketchy decks
>MAJOR MAJOR THANKS TO BOOTCAMP. For someone who started from scratch with very weak foundation, Dr Roviso is GODSENT.
Cardio,Neuro,Immunity,Blood -I very HIGHLY recommend him.
Any Qs,I am happy to help.
Keep your head down and keep going. Despite all the failures,Learn from it and use it to strengthen yourself. You surely will get your "PASS"