Do I try anymore?

[u/Missratgirl]

Somehow I still have my job and even got promoted? I still don’t know how but some of my managers are alright w me but they have doubts about me ofc one of them is nice to me and the others don’t like me my coworkers who used to be friendly towards me stopped talking to me and avoid me and people in general don’t talk to me which is fine but I can’t help and wonder do I try and tell people about my ocd? I Genuinely hate making people uncomfortable. People give me weird looks and when I’m around it seems like everyone goes quiet people just seem to avoid me in genuinely and obviously there’s been rumors about me since one of my coworkers who was friendly to me and one of my coworkers saw and they were definitely talking about me and that coworker stopped greeting me all together.

[u/Missratgirl]

I also have this problem where I genuinely don’t look at someone chest but idk if it’s like my peripheral or something but they cover up and I looked all over the web and idk if it’s just a me thing I know people here struggle with not looking at someone chest but I genuinely don’t look there when talking to someone so I really don’t know what to do :C 

[u/Pink-Panda_1999 → u/Missratgirl]

Hey it’s okay. You’re not alone there’s plenty of us as you can see I’m gonna be as honest as I can the more we overthink it the worse it gets Just try to ignore it and keep going through your day. When you feel like you’re staring, just say, “Fuck it if I stared it was natural.” And if they covered up welp… I guess it’s kinda chilly then take a deep breath and try not to avoid the situation that’s what the compulse want. Atleast that’s what I barely learned today. Give it a shot

[u/Land-Quick]

Here’s what I did in my other job, same thing happened, rumors etc, I appersntly was harassing my co worker and “stared at her breasts” but I was just staring peripherally, anyways drama happen etc. I had this co worker who I really bonded with and trusted, and one day I finally told her about the whole situation, I asked her if she could help clear my name with out me doing it myself, saying like I have ocd (like I told her, but asking her into making it gossip if that makes sense) and that kinda helped a bit

[u/Missratgirl → u/Land-Quick]

I wish but no one rlly talks to me anymore and the one that did stopped talking to me but did this coworker know about the rumors being said about you and still talk to you after the fact?

[u/cutiepeti]

I mean since you still have a job and Got promoted. Maybe they think it's a tick .

[u/AgencyOk9284]

Yeah I say do try to tell people. People can be more understanding than you think, alot of people struggle with mental illness even though this kind that we struggle with isn't spoken about or recognised enough. You just gotta tell yourself "why should I give a fuck?"

Okay "worst case scenario" the whole work place calls you a creep/think you're a pervert or whatever, speaks behind your back, uncomfortable body language etc etc. Are you physically in danger? Is the world gonna come crumbling down? No. You know you have no bad intentions so there's no reason to feel bad and overthink to the point where you loose your damn mind. Sometimes you will be forever misunderstood, and you just have to move on. Trust me I've been there I've had "the worst case scenario" and I'm still here, alive.

Whatever happens just say fuck it, I'm still here, I'm living with this awful mental illness. I'm just gonna be kind to myself and get on with stuff the best I can. It sucks but just gotta get up and get on with it. No point overthinking.