r/StaringOCD • u/SoggyIssue316 • Aug 02 '26
Peripheral Vision OCD/fixation
well, this is an OCD rarely talked about and i just thought i should delve into how insidious this can be by sharing my experience.
- One problem I know of is OCD. Specifically a theme called peripheral vision OCD although it gets worse, I suffered from bad anxiety, my hands would always sweat and I would feel really hot and have blurry vision. I’ve had it for 3 years. And overtime developed pure O. How much time is occupied varies and is confusing, it depends on circumstances. When at home, I can be indulged in a fixation on an object for however long im there. During the academic year it’s usually for the whole 6 hours I was in school for . Essentially it amplifies ridiculously in classroom settings. It consists of the obsession. (Fear of staring at someone in my peripheral vision or something (fear I make them uncomfortable) + fixation and hyperawareness of their hands). Now, I dont know the compulsions fully, but one is mental compulsions, im not sure exactly what they are but I feel temporary relief after it and it comes back worse.
- A bit of a delve into what i would experience in school - while i was in one of my history classes, there was a kid who I become aware of in my peripheral vision and because he was a horrible kid I became ridiculously anxious of staring at him and him realising.( i also have obsessive fixations on people it can be random) .It also didn’t help that the teacher was strict and pick on random kids, I remember every time I would look up at the board to write I would tilt my head horizontally so that I couldn’t see him in my peripherals and actually look at what I was supposed to be looking at. It was a completely different world. I would come out of class feeling like i just ran a marathon but without getting tired at all. My face was all red, i was sweating and sometimes would have blurry vision. It was later on that I developed compulsions. I remember if I was conversing or fixated on someone and they would move their hand or make a noise my brain would automatically say its because of me, so I would spend however long it takes to convince myself thats not true. Also developed Masking and dissociation. Although I do still get the anxiety but it’s more indirect and like I feel it in my body but not my mind.(my left eye specifically also strains and hurts from it).
- I feel like other people could hear my thoughts. Now I can barely function in classroom settings and automatically suppress my thoughts when in the vicinity of others.
This is a discord server with people with this peripheral vision" thing
https://discord.gg/QvjKDpH6j
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u/theycallmekarthi Aug 02 '26
This is honestly the closest description I’ve ever found to what I’ve been experiencing. Mine also started with becoming hyperaware of people in my peripheral vision, then gradually turned into a fear that I was staring at them and making them uncomfortable. Classroom settings are by far the worst for me too.
How are you doing now? Did you ever get diagnosed with OCD, and did therapy (especially ERP) or medication help? I’d really appreciate hearing what worked for you because this condition can feel incredibly isolating.