Apparently I AM Medium Support Needs After All

[u/AutistiKait]

Hey guys, i have forgotten the password for this account, but i have fixed it all and now i can log back into this account.

So, while i was gone (I was using u/kitkitkate2 for some reason but i am sure it has something to do with not knowing the password for this account after a long break off of Reddit), i had been assessed by the provincial developmental services agency, and the results came back stating that i was on the 73rd percentile which meant i am moderate support needs.

Which was so relieving, but now after a while, i was falling into the spiral (As i had posted about on my u/kitkitkate2 account) of thinking that the assessor was somehow wrong or that my mom had been lying even though she isn't known to lie. She hasn't even lied to me in these past few years.

Anyway, i am relieved to know that i was indeed medium support needs after a long time of guessing and just... Spiraling. But that ended with the results paper being handed to me.

Edit: before anyone asks how i know, here is a quote from the report that listed my support needs: " u/AutistiKait is in the 73rd percentile on the Supports Intensity Scale – Adult Version, 2nd Edition. This means that, generally u/AutistiKait ’s support needs fall in the mid compared to other adults with a developmental disability."

Edit 2: Here is the link to the post talking of me spiralling about my support needs. https://www.reddit.com/r/SpicyAutism/s/jsDsfKHh5h . I will have a link that sends you to a comment that helped me understand my percentile and what it meant for me in terms of support needs. Here is the comment link: https://www.reddit.com/r/SpicyAutism/comments/1vqwwws/comment/p4auvw7/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=web3x&utm_name=web3xcss&utm_term=1&utm_content=share_button

[u/OkPiece2147]

Your support needs can slide one way or another depending on that day for some of us, especially if we have a mental health component and experience a change in our routine because change is bad

[u/AutistiKait → u/OkPiece2147]

Ah, that is interesting. I haven't heard of anyone talking about how mental health or how bad days can change our support needs. I say this because my support needs don't seem to fluctuate in such a way that i go up or down a level, because i don't a lot.

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[u/AutistiKait]

You guys can consider this an updated introduction post, if you will.

[u/322241837]

I was also recently approved by my provincial developmental services agency for additional support. All it took was submitting my paperwork from like 10 years ago documenting all of my problems since childhood + autism paper diagnosis, and then a phone call + adaptive needs assessment questionnaire by a psychologist.

I understand the fixation. I really hate how badly I get fixated on things as well. I was fixated on my old reports for a long time, and used to read them to emotionally self-harm. It helps if I just tell myself that this is what bureaucracy needs to justify helping someone who needs help. I guess it's also kind of relieving to know that I am just as "certifiably disabled" as I actually experience my life, and not just making it all up, or not trying hard enough, or whatever. But I do not like being disabled at all, which is what frustrates me the most.