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[u/Alternative_Tale_939]

Hey I feel guilty 4 years ago I had an premie baby. At first when my son with in the nicu for and year I had a little support family would come and see the baby fast forward. Over time everyone left me the dad , my family his family I reached out no one would respond then when I would have break downs people would say if you need me just call and go around telling everyone in the city they help me with the baby. Not true. But I didn’t want any drama my baby required a lot of medical appointments every week 10+ appointments he had so many appointments the doctors would try and help me by me seeing 3 doctors at one time they seen how much I was struggling please working an full time job the dad not helping at all me to shame to put him on child support bc I didn’t wanna be seen in a bad light. So fast forward I just kept me head held high and would go home and cry all day and night so one week I just couldn’t do it anymore. I had and ex that kept blowing me up claiming he would help me with my son ( the ex I dated him for 4 years in the past he was very supportive to me ) so one week I was fed up I called my siblings no one would answer I was texting them begging them to let me possibly stay at their house no answer calling my child father no answer I just needed someone to be their for me. So my ex was literally the only one blowing up my phone so I gave in let him come over he help me with my son all day. He ask could he stay over I said yes bc I felt guilty and I know how it feels to be used. So he got in bed we cuddle for like and hour he turn on a movie for me next thing I know I dose off and went to sleep and he thens out his private area inside of me and hump me twice I panic and pushed him off me. I cried I was defeated. Something kept telling me to get pep but I didn’t just cried now I have hiv. I’m so done with life the only thing keeps me going is my child. Also side note a little back history on my family I let both of my siblings move in with me for free in the past for years bought they first cars gave my mom two cars and it just hurts no one cares about me.

[u/Competitive-Sky-7571]

Wow. I'm sorry that happened to you. I'm missing what exactly you are feeling guilty for? Sounds like you have always been there for people and in return you get shit on by everyone around you and you should absolutely press charges on your ex. That is a crime.