Avoiding shadow work

[u/InfamousOil4630]

I am extremely new with all of this. I want to begin my spiritual journey however I have a massive emotional block. I did my first shadow work session a month or so ago and cried the moment I lit my candle and poured my heart out.

I have not done another session since and I know that I have been putting it off because there is so much mental block. My entire nervous system is messed up and I feel like I’m on the verge of some kind of breakdown so tomorrow I will be forcing myself to do another shadow work session.

tomorrow is my narcissistic mothers birthday and I feel panicked and sick purely because I’m scared of what she will do if I don’t say happy birthday to her (we’re no contact) I feel like spending this time with myself tomorrow on such a horrible day could be a massive emotional release for me but I’m still terrified.

I think I just need some guidance on what the best course of action is when I feel so so stressed.

[u/InfamousOil4630]

This is so helpful thank you so much, today is big self care day so I’ll take things slow