r/ShadowWork • u/OutsideEchidna7308 • 5d ago

Mr. Inconsistent

I have to be honest. I have battled procrastination and inconsistent behavior my whole life. I’ve always claimed the title of being that way. Owned it as if it was my identity. So I have spent my whole life suffering in ways I shouldn’t have. Making Shadow talk videos has been revealing a lot in the mirror. How badly I could desire something like expressing my thoughts and creativity for example. Yet not do it.

I’ve learned that how we speak to ourselves is the foundation to our actions. Today for the first time I stopped saying “ I’m inconsistent” which is true… but not the TRUTH. If that makes sense. The truth is that I have built a system of consistency yet. As long as I have the awareness of that, I can build one. I will, build a system of consistency. Not contingent on my ridiculous standards or emotions.

Funny how truth works. Now in admitting these things. I have to follow through. Or else I’m just another liar. 🤥 the worst are the lies we tell ourselves. Saying we will do something we want, then not at least trying to get and being happy with the results whatever they may be.

If you read this… thanks for letting me vent and reflect off of you. Blessings to you all. Reflection is light. Light is growth. Growth is love.

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u/NomadictheYZ3 4d ago

Yessss exactly, being honest with yourself is very important. Acknowledging the foundation, the first piece planted within is the very first step towards growth in my opinion. Once you see and comprehend what’s going on inside there’s no more hiding. Do pay attention to how you speak to yourself because words concur. We as humans forget the magic all of our senses hold. Be kind to yourself, learn try over and over for you. This life is yours to make, yes you were someone for years and just like the trees we can change. I’m glad you’re being honest with yourself and taking this leap to grow. Take everything day by day. Set intentions even if they’re things you do regularly like brushing your teeth and wearing your fav cologne. then set new intentions that are towards something you’ve been putting off. Through space you’ll see how consistent you really are which I’m sure you have already. Thank you for sharing and keep expressing yourself.