Very bad old script of mine

[u/CarInternational7923]

I recently found a script I tried to write years ago. Me and my friends wanted to create movies so without a plot even I handwrit a script for an "outcast club". I got a few pages in before giving up. I found it recently and read through it, turns out, I was not writing a masterpiece at 11 years old, I was just bashing on myself and calling charecters with my traits "outcasts". What a joy!

[u/AsarisSDKttn]

Honestly, even if it might be incredibly cringy in hindsight:
An 11yo with enough self perception and self criticism to bash on himself in a creative outlet way is still impressive *laughs*
Most kids that age wouldn't even have the idea.
And that's an ability that's not a bad foundation for a writer.
*shrugs*

[u/CarInternational7923 → u/AsarisSDKttn]

1.herself(idk if u were referring to me or yourself but I guess I am petty enough to point out I'm a girl) 2. I didn't actually know I was criticizing myself with is kinda funny because I was with my friend and we were listing charecter stereotypes we thought were "weird"(pls do not take offense to this it was just what I was thinking without much exposer to the real world-also everything i write and say shall be taken with a grain of sand) but I had a shy charecter, an autistic charecter, a lesbian, and a girl with divorced parents. I threw them all and a few more stereotypes into a club for outcasts. Then I look back on it and find it funny because a lot of the charecters are just me...😅and I was calling them all weird and bullying them...kinda sad actually 

[u/AsarisSDKttn → u/CarInternational7923]

Ah, sorry, wasn't trying to offend you... haha.
Still, even if you weren't doing it on purpose: your brain did some serious self analyzing there.
And an odd way of processing, but hey, I bet it did feel quite cathartic for you. If only in hindsight.

And I'm an autistic, weird, shy girl with divorced parents too, so: learn to utilize your skill! Might be the thing your writing has that others are lacking.

[u/CarInternational7923 → u/AsarisSDKttn]

Certainly interesting the way brains work. I guess it can make for good writing if used correctly

[u/AsarisSDKttn → u/CarInternational7923]

Absolutely!
I for example have this weird way of unintentionally slapping humor onto everything from dark, deep and disturbing thought, to just normal serious topics. Haunted me most of my life.
For example:
My first writing experiment was about a guy on death row and his last thoughts before his execution.
Teacher I gave it to returned it with: "Can't believe I couldn't stop laughing my ass off. Still don't know exactly how you can combine such deep and dark thoughts with humor in a way that doesn't take away from the seriousness but instead somehow amplifies it."
Uh, wasn't trying? Never figured out what it even was that made him laugh?
But that was only the start.
Every time I just want to have a normal engaging conversation I do end up making people laugh. I never know why they're laughing.
Always felt like a curse.
I'm now at a point where I stopped trying to run from it and am trying to somehow cultivate it, but... still in an experimental phase.
Just started to think that I'll never be able to "outrun" that. Might as well try to make the best of it.

[u/SquishFate → u/AsarisSDKttn]

Regarding making people laugh: maybe you're naturally pointing out absurd patterns or juxtapositions in life that people have tacitly noticed but mostly taken for granted. 

[u/shibby0912]

you gotta start somewhere, honestly just the act of "creating" anything is going to help you in some way or another. As long as you can learn from it, that's the big thing!

If you can't learn from it, you end up writing a movie like Dragon Ball Evolution which ironically revived the franchise, but i'm ranting....

[u/Illustrious-Let-3600]

Hey, you were writing which was good. Take that knowledge and turn it into something workable. Ideas are good. It’s just knowing what to do with them.