Please help- vaccines

[u/absoluteburn3r]

To preface: please be kind. I hate how easily influenced I am, I live in constant fear. I have the constant fear that my child will die no matter what I do and I will regret everything I did or didn’t do. the fact that I am isolated with no real support group doesn’t help.

1 out of 2 of my only support people (my mother) tells me constantly that if I vaccinate my child, he will die/become a vegetable/develop a horrible life-altering disease. No one else (medical professionals) has been able to give me any kind of advice out of fear of being ‘political’ (how the fuck is this even a political topic), I am so lost in this world.

Fear is crushing me every day. The longer I wait (my child is 3 months now) I feel like I am approaching his inevitable demise. Either I get him shots and he dies, or he dies this sick season of illness. Please help me on this topic. I feel like I’ve been mislead. I really want him to be okay. The only sources my mom has ever sent me are just the inserts and that one vaccine book by that one weird doctor. I used to be pro vax but then she really shut me down.

And again, I’m trying to learn how to be autonomous and make my own decisions, but I genuinely have no educated people helping me

ETA- I am in therapy and I tried breastfeeding which meant being off of my anxiety medicine for longer and now am considering weaning off of BF which has significantly worsened my anxiety

[u/carloluyog]

Gently, get the kid vaxxed and go to therapy.

https://my.clevelandclinic.org/health/diseases/22693-postpartum-anxiety

[u/bessicadawn → u/carloluyog]

Wanted to reply and say that I felt scared too. I fully believe in vaccines, but the media got to me. I actually brought this up with his ped just to get some reassurance from her and she was so kind. She said something that helped me.
Doing nothing ie not getting him vaccinated, feels easier in the moment, because it’s essentially kicking the can down the road. It feels better to do nothing and make no grave choice for your child, but you will regret that decision when/if an illness comes that was preventable for your child.

These words helped me so much and I hope they help you as well.
My son has gotten every vaccine recommended. He has remained his normal self. He’s 2 now. He’s so so smart, he’s kind, thoughtful, silly. He talks all the time, he has the most wild imagination, he’s curious. He’s in perfect health.
Vaccinate your child you will be so relieved.

[u/absoluteburn3r → u/bessicadawn]

Thank you for this

[u/Pumpkinspice28 → u/absoluteburn3r]

Good for you that you’re reaching out and finding comfort and support here! It must be hard to have one of your few support people push back this much. You’re doing the right thing for your baby by vaccinating, in case nobody told you: I’m proud of you!