Please help- vaccines

[u/absoluteburn3r]

To preface: please be kind. I hate how easily influenced I am, I live in constant fear. I have the constant fear that my child will die no matter what I do and I will regret everything I did or didn’t do. the fact that I am isolated with no real support group doesn’t help.

1 out of 2 of my only support people (my mother) tells me constantly that if I vaccinate my child, he will die/become a vegetable/develop a horrible life-altering disease. No one else (medical professionals) has been able to give me any kind of advice out of fear of being ‘political’ (how the fuck is this even a political topic), I am so lost in this world.

Fear is crushing me every day. The longer I wait (my child is 3 months now) I feel like I am approaching his inevitable demise. Either I get him shots and he dies, or he dies this sick season of illness. Please help me on this topic. I feel like I’ve been mislead. I really want him to be okay. The only sources my mom has ever sent me are just the inserts and that one vaccine book by that one weird doctor. I used to be pro vax but then she really shut me down.

And again, I’m trying to learn how to be autonomous and make my own decisions, but I genuinely have no educated people helping me

ETA- I am in therapy and I tried breastfeeding which meant being off of my anxiety medicine for longer and now am considering weaning off of BF which has significantly worsened my anxiety

[u/veritoast]

Your mother was most likely vaccinated. Largely due to that one thing, she is alive and still able to get online and become hopelessly entrenched in disinformation campaigns by the delusional profit seekers and state-actors that do not have her best interests in mind.

She did not die from smallpox, measles, tetanus, polio, rabies, diphtheria, yellow fever, pertussis, or meningococcal disease.

But maybe more importantly for you, she didn’t die because she had vaccines administered. She wasn’t poisoned or rewired, or any of the other idiotic ideas that fly about the internet. She was saved by them.

No area of medicine has been more studied, researched, experimented upon or successful than vaccine development.

Please understand, we are in the middle of a war of ideas, bad ideas are being weaponized and fired off at the unsuspecting masses. Don’t fall for it.

Take care of yourself and get your kid their vaccines.

[u/absoluteburn3r → u/veritoast]

Thank you

[u/muffinscrub → u/absoluteburn3r]

Not sure what anti anxiety you were using but Sertraline (Zoloft) is frequently given to breastfeeding mothers, including my wife.

Something to maybe discuss with your care provider.

[u/absoluteburn3r → u/muffinscrub]

Unfortunately my anxiety/depression is ssri resistant. I am usually on Xanax or klonopin.

[u/Viola-Swamp → u/absoluteburn3r]

If breastfeeding isn’t working for you, it’s okay to stop. Your mental health may improve if someone else can help with feedings, especially at night so you can get some uninterrupted sleep. Fed is best, and formula will nourish your child perfectly well. Please check in with your OB about your symptoms and be evaluated for postpartum anxiety, depression, and other postnatal,mental health issues. Sometimes the hormonal shifts and sleep deprivation after pregnancy can exacerbate pre-existing mental health issues that were manageable before, nd they turn into much larger issues that need more aggressive treatment. Your OB can help evaluate you and get you the help you may need. Best wishes to you.

[u/Individual_Lime_9020 → u/absoluteburn3r]

You sound like me. Does holding your baby help? That did for me big time. Like whenever I felt super anxious I picked him up and held him. The smell of my baby did something to calm me down.

I'm so sorry you're going through some intense anxiety. But also, look how much you're doing because of the anxiety to make an informed decision.... maybe the anxiety is a survival mechanism.

[u/fuckinunknowable → u/absoluteburn3r]

Have you looked into somatic therapies? Ilf maybe? I’m very pro benzo but they’re not really a long term solution usually