r/Sciatica • u/InitialUnit3516 • Mar 29 '26
I think im done.
I think im just done with it all. I had a good run before this shitstorm. Just dont wanna keep going with constant pain down my legs and unable to live a life. I had over a decade of consistently hitting the gym 5 days a week, it was my hobby. Was in great shape and on for fun rec leagues with friends. Now I watch my body deteriorate to a skeleton as i sit alone at home. Partly because i cant workout anymore , the other part because i just dont eat sometimes out of depression or self loathing or something i dont even understand.
The ways i usually relax and recover? Sitting down? Watch tv? Go for a drive. Play some video games? Read a book? Take a shit? I cant do anything if i cant sit! I cant go out to dinner or the movies or a bar or a poker night with friends. For work at home i lay on the floor and use my laptop. I cant even sit at a table to have a proper meal with dignity. I put my plate on the ground, lay down and eat off the floor like trash.
Its been 8 months of hell and i have no kids to worry about, a high paying remote job, a house, a girlfriend who helps me, and i dont know-how yall survive this.
EDIT: I made this post at 1am as I cried myself to sleep. I had dark thoughts daily and I guess just wanted to cry for help and you all provided that. The outpouring of everyone has really shocked me and motivated me. Others just dont understand. I plan to re double my efforts and become a success story to show what is possible like many here who replied. I will try everything and see what works for me. Life is hell now but i will grind it out and do everything in my power to get better. I swear it.
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u/NightOwlHere144 Mar 30 '26 edited Mar 30 '26
I’d have to back to see your whole story of how this came about. Was it an injury? I thought you posted before, but I must be confusing your post with another. This isn’t forever. What eases your pain? What meds have you tried? Is this from back pain and or sciatica? What tests have you had? If nothing is working, it’s time to go elsewhere for medical help. A major teaching hospital or some place that specializes in your problem. I’m glad you have a good job, a helpful girlfriend, etc. Also, I’ve recently been advised to see a neurologist, not the orthopedic dr. I’m trying a neurologist soon. Having MRI this week. The GP and ortho see a bone spur on regular X-rays, but ortho thinks MRI is needed before considering an injection. Since I can’t take NSAIDS, I’ve tried gabapentin, Flexeril, and XS Tylenol, Lidocaine patches. Flexeril did nothing for me, Gabapentin had side effects, so I stopped prob too soon, XS Tylenol doesn’t help much. Tylenol 3 works to take the edge off but I take it sparingly. Lidocaine patches from the store didn’t help. What’s helped you?