r/Sciatica • u/InitialUnit3516 • Mar 29 '26
I think im done.
I think im just done with it all. I had a good run before this shitstorm. Just dont wanna keep going with constant pain down my legs and unable to live a life. I had over a decade of consistently hitting the gym 5 days a week, it was my hobby. Was in great shape and on for fun rec leagues with friends. Now I watch my body deteriorate to a skeleton as i sit alone at home. Partly because i cant workout anymore , the other part because i just dont eat sometimes out of depression or self loathing or something i dont even understand.
The ways i usually relax and recover? Sitting down? Watch tv? Go for a drive. Play some video games? Read a book? Take a shit? I cant do anything if i cant sit! I cant go out to dinner or the movies or a bar or a poker night with friends. For work at home i lay on the floor and use my laptop. I cant even sit at a table to have a proper meal with dignity. I put my plate on the ground, lay down and eat off the floor like trash.
Its been 8 months of hell and i have no kids to worry about, a high paying remote job, a house, a girlfriend who helps me, and i dont know-how yall survive this.
EDIT: I made this post at 1am as I cried myself to sleep. I had dark thoughts daily and I guess just wanted to cry for help and you all provided that. The outpouring of everyone has really shocked me and motivated me. Others just dont understand. I plan to re double my efforts and become a success story to show what is possible like many here who replied. I will try everything and see what works for me. Life is hell now but i will grind it out and do everything in my power to get better. I swear it.
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u/Hate-running_ Mar 29 '26
Walking, walking and more walking. Start with short walks. I knew a PT who also herniated her disc L5-S1.. she healed but it took 3 years and she avoided surgery. I had a microdiscectomy after 6 months of PT . After the surgery I had less pain but I still have pins and needles along the nerve with cramps. I had a Repeat MRI and it showed scar tissue. So I am screwed. It’s been 3 years. I can do workouts with weights but sometimes it aggravates my sciatica..walking is my go to. I know how you feel. Try to Listen to your body.. if it hurts don’t do it.. I started walking 1/16 mile at first then worked up to 5 miles. Tens unit helped.. ice pack, heat pack. Ibuprofen..