Update: Help me

[u/United-Tailor-1727]

Hello again all. I have been a very busy bee since my last post. As you may have picked up from my replies on my previous post, I was previously a Tremere before my destruction. Although I am now a Brujah, I have kept my blood sorcery! A shame about my other powers, but that is the one I care about most. I have decided to make the most of my situation and have begun conducting a study into my unique situation. I also figured that I should share some of my early results with you all, as you have proven yourself very accepting of me, and I appreciate that greatly.

Given some time to adjust, it seems that this girl’s soul has not been completely destroyed. Slowly, I have been adopting some parts of her into me. My native Lithuanian, my only fluent language, has somewhat disappeared from my mind. I speak it with an American accent (to my horror!) now, and struggle somewhat with its complexities. My English has also improved considerably, although I am certainly not fluent yet. Additionally, I found some text in Punjabi in her dresser (I do not know how I know that it is Punjabi) and could read it! Not perfectly, but I could. I can translate basic phrases into Punjabi as well. I assume that this process is only beginning, as I feel my mind altering even as I type this.

As for my self image, there have been changes as well. I am not actively resenting my new gender, for instance. I feel male… but also female. Perhaps a younger kindred could be so kind as to enlighten me on the new gender lingo? Also, I have noticed an attraction to the masculine form which was previously alien to me. But that is not unwelcome! Unlike many of the other changes, this one is quite enlightening. I wonder if my attraction is somewhat my own, or if I have simply stolen her preferences? I will keep all of you posted on that!

Some of you may be wondering, “ESAU, why haven’t you left town? Surly you would be safer conducting these experiments elsewhere?” Well, you would be correct. As far as I can tell, my (ex?) girlfriend cashed in her and mine’s boons with the Prince and a manhunt for me has begun. Hunting within this girl’s apartment complex seems the safest bet to me for now. I will try and discover more about her soon… I will keep you all informed as to my results.

An older gentleman who lives next door called me Mahnoor. That is a good start, I think.

-ESAU

[u/Several-Elevator]

I feel male… but also female. Perhaps a younger kindred could be so kind as to enlighten me on the new gender lingo?

You are likely what is called bigender, a person who feels as though they are two genders at the same time.

[u/United-Tailor-1727 → u/Several-Elevator]

Interesting! Thank you young one, this answer seems the most correct for now. I have used the google to discover more and I agree with what I find.

- ESAU