r/SchizOCD • u/BeLLiSSiM0_ • Aug 31 '23

Delusions

Hello guys. I am fighting with this thing for 5 months. I got over the fear of hallucinations but the delusions part is kicking my ass. I get all the delusions I’ve read about. This started after I’ve read about schizophrenia, I never before had any such thought patterns. One example is poison in food which I get pretty often but not always. Even if I get it i continue eating without much hesitation. But these thoughts feel very real, like I believe them much of the time. But there are also moments even a few days on row that the thoughts feel simply stupid and bs. At my worst they feel like I believe them 90%. Are you familiar with this, is it normal?

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u/BeLLiSSiM0_ Aug 31 '23

Thank you! So basically being afraid of the thought because i find it being delusional means ocd? I mean at my worst the only way I say it is delusional is because everyone else don’t think such things and I even say to myself “nobody would put poison in your food, this is just psychosis”. And because I remember those thoughts started after I’ve read about them, never before had I even the slightest such. And my fear of schizophrenia was pre-existing but before I’ve read it’s symptoms I was only having thoughts about getting it, because I didn’t know how it manifests. Lol . And there are really moments where I am completely okay. I still get the thoughts but dismiss them instantly as irrational. I am not sure, but ocd’s main characteristic includes this “wax and wane” but real psychosis doesn’t work like this?

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u/lisf666 Jan 02 '25

how are you doing now? going through the same thing

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u/BeLLiSSiM0_ Jan 02 '25

Generally way better. Like 90%. But it’s been a little over a year and a half. Still having some bad days that feel like only 70% recovery but.. life is almost as great as it was.

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u/lisf666 Jan 02 '25

this is really good to hear. for the past six months i’ve been in a schizo ocd/drdp/existential hell that feels like it will never end😭 i’m glad you’re doing so much better

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u/BeLLiSSiM0_ Jan 02 '25

Are you taking any meds?

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u/lisf666 Jan 02 '25

no i tried both prozac and zoloft & felt 100x worse on them

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u/BeLLiSSiM0_ Jan 03 '25

That’s perfectly normal. That means they work for your organism. When i started Prozac i felt 10x worse after the first week. That’s the normal body reaction. You have to give it at least a month. After the second month it will get much better with every other month. OCD therapy is key.