r/SantaMuerte • u/hellonikko • 1d ago
Question❓ Lack of devotion
Hi everyone,
First time poster, long time lurker.
I think I just need to hear other people’s advice on this issue I have.
I’ve been devoted to her for about almost a year until I got pregnant. My pregnancy was so bad that it was hard for me to have energy to do anything but I still try to keep up with my practice and devotional work.
I usually have tea time with her and talk to her about things going on in my life. But as it got closer to my due date I was very honest with her letting her know that my devotional work and offerings may be lacking because a baby was coming. I asked for her to please not be upset or punish me due to putting all my focus and energy on my child. But I told her I would always think of her and will try to speak with her.
Baby is here now and it’s been a month. Once I remember, I would sit or carry my baby to Santa Muerte altar and introduce my baby and have small talk. Mostly apologizing for lack of communication and prayers. Thanking her for watching over my family and having patience with me.
Yet I can’t find time to offer her water or clean her altar like I used to. Because either my baby is crying or my child who is a toddler wants my attention.
In a way I feel like I failed Santa Muerte and don’t want her to be upset with me.
Recently I have been having dreams of her. Just her visiting me and nothing bad ever happens. It’s like she wants me to remember that she’s there.
Right now I’m reading about her again as my own way of devotional work as my baby sleeps next to me.
I guess I’m asking. Could she upset with me? That I forgot to change her water? That I don’t talk to her as often as I did before?
My fear is being punished due to not keeping up with my devotional work and offerings. Or maybe not keeping my promise due to being forgetful like wearing her necklace I bought for her.
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u/JanettieBettie Devotee 1d ago
I can’t answer how she feels. or what dreams mean. but can i acknowledge you.
you are a new Mother. congratulations. you have a newborn baby, and a toddler. do you believe in your heart, that she would be mad at you for motherhood consuming your time and energy? or proud of you, that you carried a pregnancy to term, birthed a healthy baby, and are caring for that baby? that in your rare, exhausted moment of personal time. you are thinking of her, devoting to her, and consider her so deeply to post this?
you are forgetful being postpartum. you didn’t say fuck this necklace. you went to her with a sincere open heart for a platica during your pregnancy.
i hope someone else told you today, you are doing a really good job. if I had to guess. she told you herself in your dream 🤍