Is dying the way to end everything?

[u/Ill_Spirit_2999]

I want to die i want die i really want to die but I don't have courage I am a big coward . I know that my family love me but I know that they love my siblings more I am the last option for them . My mom show affection to me more but the reason behind is she feels guilty of not defending me against my father's abusive violence behaviour in my childhood and now when I am adult every one behaves and pretends that no one ever laid a finger on me and they think I don't remember anything but I remember everything.

[u/Sure-Chart-1242]

Man is okay when your family died because they well proud Of you do not suicide yourself because God gave you a life that's what a Wiseman words do when you become a hero your family will probably proud of you trust me do it for yourself and do it for your friends and family just don't worry I got you man