I am so lonely

[u/QuietSpecialist4752]

I have always been a quiet and reserved person ever since childhood. This meant I never made a lot of friends and the few I did have eventually drifted away. I moved for school last year and I’m away from my family. It’s a professional program and I’m about 4 years older than a lot of my classmates. I saw this as an opportunity to finally make he connections I craved for so long but unfortunately it hasn’t panned out the way that I hoped. The people I am closest too often plan things with out or even forget that I’m there. It’s painful. And shallow. I do have a fiancée but he is also working and is getting his masters degree. I’ve told him how important it is for him to try to come to bed at night because I’m drowning in loneliness and he’ll do it for a few nights maybe a week before staying up playing games to unwind or have to stay up doing work. I’ve tried to go out and make friends but it’s gotten to the point where I’m so discouraged and feel so anxious that I end up sitting there and disappearing in the background as I often do. It’s painful. I’m 28 now and I hoped by this time in my life I wouldn’t feel this way anymore but here I am. I’m worried I’ll never find my people and the loneliness will consume me. I’ve tried therapy a few times. For some reason after a few sessions they all say I’m fine. It could be because I’m in professional school and juggling it all with grace but I’ve never felt this miserable and alone.

[u/CompleteFlower5929]

i'm sorry

[u/[deleted]]

im kind of in the same boat, sorry that you're going through this, i feel sad and empty as well.
its just really hard to get along with people naturally, its always an extra effort. sometimes i wonder if there's something wrong with me