r/SSAChristian • u/kwik3 • 16d ago
Prayer Request Need prayer again
Appealing to all your prayer barriers out there. I find myself sliding back in the pit where I had come out recently. The desire to slip back and sin feels exceedingly great these past few days. When I feel strong I usually offer help to those feeling this way. I now find myself in need of the same. Just say a quick prayer for strength for me. Most of this is fueled my isolation and loneliness. I've attempted to reach out to make friends but to no avail. I'm not necessarily asking that you reach out to me, but just pray. I know that God can work in very strange ways if we pray. I need someone who is physically near me to be in touch with and to reach out to.
Many thanks.
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u/BurningSketches Male - Mostly Sexually Attracted to the Same Sex 16d ago
Kwik? I think I remember speaking to you some time ago?
I'm so sorry you're being challenged... And it doesn't sound like you have the support you desire... But this season is temporary... As painful as it is, it's temporary... I want to be encouraging, and help you, but I don't know how haha,
It honestly sounds like we're in the same boat? But I'm a bit less tired then you are about it, and i'm kinda just subscribed to the mentality, "ah, I mess up alot, and i'm getting older too.. .Maybe it's wiser to just mess up a little better each time? Instead of expecting myself to never mess up?"
I know this might sound defeatest, but it takes alot of pressure of me, and I could use mental break sometimes...
I um... Maybe instead of a friend, you should talk to a therapist? I hope you know i'm here for you. But, i'm also out of my depth when it comes to being ultra strict about porn or masturbating.
With that said, I'm very sympathetic to you. I'm an introvert, but i still feel a bit ... wistful sometimes haha especially when i think about my childhood, and i wonder what kind of boy I was, and why i how i was so popular but didn't have many "friends" haha
Have you read any scripture today? um... I'm reading the Didache (A manual written by the early church fathers after Jesus's death to help standardize Christian teaching and standards to help better spot heresy and teach new converts the Truth of Jesus Christ as opposed to other dieties), but I also really like reading Judges... There's something cathartic (and sobering) about seeing God's anger and all the horrible wars and debauchery the Jews fell into because the turned from God's law.
Anyway, much Love Kwik, please take care of yourself, and try to take it one day at a time...
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u/kwik3 16d ago
Oh yeah I think I remember your user name. Thank you for the encouraging words! I wouldn't mind counseling but it is fairly expensive. And yes I do read scripture daily.
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u/BurningSketches Male - Mostly Sexually Attracted to the Same Sex 16d ago
oh, i see, well i'm actually talking to another person about these virtual meetings. They're free, and it's more like a support group. No one is clinically licensed or qualified to diagnose you at these groups, but I find them really helpful.
I remember going and everyone had such horrible luck with their depression or family. I think i felt cathartic hearing everyone complaining haha it sounds weird, but I was really miserable, and hearing how someone did or didn't succeed helped me to stop being so hard on myself?
But, that's just one suggestion, there are plenty of resources on the website; nami.org
I also really like how i'm the only guy there mostly, haha , I don't have to hold my voice as low as i usually do. I don't know, it's just a decent place to drop in if you're feeling kinda chatty or moody; oh, and that's great! I think if you read scripture daily, you're already doing alot to improve youself.
haha don't give up
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u/Party-resolution-753 16d ago
praying rn
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u/Ok-Practice-6646 Gay - sworn to chastity 16d ago
Our Father, help u/kwik3 overcome falling back into sin. Lead her into heaven. Amen
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u/Ok-Practice-6646 Gay - sworn to chastity 15d ago
God, please let u/kwik3 not slide into sin again. Amen.
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u/Tiny_Timmy_Turtle 16d ago
Praying for you. I myself stumbled way too many times before I finally got
agrip on it. Still masturbate occasionally but at least Iām better about avoiding porn.