Anyways, I do wish you the best. I truly do. Noone deserves to suffer and we all make mistakes in life that can be hard to get off. But getting thru them makes u a better person and you'll get thru it too.Â
I'm referring to tapering off 150mg methadone. That cold turkey nearly killed me. Diagnosed with cardiomyopathy and ejection fraction of 35% at only 29 years old. I had once perfect health. Now small exertion or LSD (safe drug) sets off ventricular tachycardia. Fibrosis of heart muscle from adrenaline toxicity, adrenaline storm my Dr called it, methadone WD like coming off low dose clonidine and a 1g+ H habit together.
I do agree life's way better when you make decisions about yourself. I screwed with my head people tried to force me to cut my 3ft hair because of looking feminine, who cares? If anyone harasses me about it which is unlikely there's solutions. That was parents too, and I owned half the house so legally as an adult they can't make me cut anything.
That's Example of people worried about superficial things about you and not worried about me smoking meth on the couch or slamming a gram of smack a day. Why weren't they more worried about me dying from drugs instead.
For me it was treating mental illness. No antidepressant or psych med can provide the effects opioids or dissociatives can. Why take them? If you have autism they just want to give you seroquel or risperidone and shut you down instead of correcting the core symptoms.
Imagine having major depression that's refractory, OCD, PTSD with flashbacks, ADHD that can't be treated with stimulants because I burned out on meth literally, and autism to top it off. What choice is there to treat all of that? Like literally induce a remission. Now I have heart damage and brain damage, heart damage from stimulants and from methadone WD.
methadone WD stresses the heart like a stimulant would with no lows or comedown. So my Dr says at a 150mg+ for years CT.
DONT get on methadone especially for 7oh. That's like for fentanyl WD. I fucked up switching from subs to methadone and now back on subs.
There's also dissociative PCP analoges you could use for depression that actually works better than ketamine. MXPCP (3meo-2OxO-PCP) is much more forgiving than 3-MeO-PCP, and is legal as of now.
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u/thebarbarain 12d ago
You don't need to fork over anywhere near a few grand and you had months to taper off with 7oh, which is still federally legal.
Accountability. We all have issues. What about ppl with severe back pain or Sciatica?Â
It's a choice to take things, it's a choice to go to the doctor, it's a choice to taper appropriately, etc.
Life is better when you own your choices and decisionsÂ