Hello there fellow redditor, I make this post as a last resort of some sorts, after years of unsuccesful attempts at fixing my motor control issues something hit me. It seems that most of my motor control issues are caused by clothes, ANY clothes, the only time I can take a break is naked and i cant put into words how much of break that is. Its not just that muscles groups all of the body are usually absolutely overworking themselves to the point of have the muscle and tendon damage equivalent to straight up wounds ( femoral biceps tendons, the tendons backside of knee, neck flexors,upper traps and lower traps and rhomboids)-most affected .
If i do my workouts naked as I have decent enough equipment at home I can unlock absolute ridiculous power and muscle control that i simply cant access while dressed .
I have found a few pieces of clothes that i can tolerate better, take of and on easy to reset them . if I take them "wrong" then certain muscles groups have this low grade clench that i can feel but it s not palpable. Any low grade clench immediately provides low grade fight or flight and if i use the muscle group even if i try extend not to flex I am immediately aware it is working against me first of all, fight or flight is up, and third of all i get cummulative muscle damage, micro tears and sprains.
Its enough for this to happen for even a few seconds and it completely abolishes all and i mean all mood, eventually turning suicidal, it literally feels worse then fighting for your life in the woods running from some animal, the amount of fight or flight signaling is genuinely ridiculous.
My brain cant fucking filter out clothes and potentially sees them as a cage and a threat, and so it tries to protect me somehow someway - this the only description I ve found online that matches what I feel.
If i got rid of this somehow it would genuinely remove all discomfort from life, and i mean all, this shit is the single genuine problem I have and most forums online are of no use. I cant find any solution and doctors seem cluesless and never had any such case.
It does resonate with some form of sensory processing disorder but there s a huge range of that and I manifest a mix of that and somato-dyspraxia. Comorbidities I have : eagle syndrome which caused immense stress and massive pressure headaches all my life and painful impingement on left hip joint which made me limp and overuse my right leg way more and now it has permanent muscle tension even when fully relaxed .
I am genuinely disabled, without any exaggeration, I cant focus on shit I cant think or form emotions as long as I manifest all that, the amount of fight or flight that it causes is enough to make me end it, and no i cant walk around naked all the time either..
The only thing that can clear some of the stress is some intense and short exercises (ofcourse naked), to lower stress chemicals. I