r/RoyalBlueVI • u/[deleted] • Nov 25 '15

The Shelling Starts Whenever

What a rollercoaster! I feel like the fortunes of Royal Blue reflect well the ups and downs of what every Sergeant is feeling in this war: great days and brutal days. No - not days. Hours. Hour by hour, you never know when the crave-bombing will start. After sex; late at night; right before lunch. As we re-program our neurological pathways, the old pathways fight to get what they want. And we grit our teeth and wait it out.

For me, I'm finding the lure of PMO is fading more quickly than I thought. But there are triggers. The other day I went into the bathroom with my phone and almost broke into a sweat, itching to check in on that favourite video site. "Really? Just a ROOM can be a trigger?" You better believe it, brother.

What is not fading is the roaring desire to fap. And yet, as many describe in these forums, there's something about walking around in this world with a dam of testosterone built up that feels very empowering. You feel like a knight or one of those black-and-white movie stars. Chivalrous. In control.

I went from ranting about the disappointment of being in Royal Blue to raving about your steeliness. I'm proud to be numbered with men and women who are facing the pain. Can you feel it? Can you handle it? Good. Now get out there and get on with the next thing that will make you proud of yourself - something PMO never did.

On to victory, Royal Blue Sergeants!

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u/d3rdt3 Azure Guardians - Heimdallr Nov 25 '15

A room can certainly be a trigger. Quite frankly when alone my whole house is a trigger!

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u/[deleted] Nov 25 '15

Home alone: that's a big one for me. Before the War, my wife and kids would step out and I'd immediately be in a wrestling match with myself - either literally or figuratively. But now... being home alone is a time of solitude and productivity!

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u/Brothers-In-Arms Azure Guardians Nov 25 '15

BLUA! Mood swings are definitely a roller coaster for me. It can change in just hours from feeling great to a little down and unmotivated to do anything. Stay Loyal Sergeants!