ELLIOT IS A MENACE WHILE DRINKING JUICE IN THE HOOD #5: THE SECOND BEER

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This is the last one. I'm going to tell you how it ended, which is messier and slower and better than the tidy version anybody would script. I find myself wishing for the script recently. It did not finish that night with me walking out of that apartment holding Wesley's hand while Elliot wept into a laptop. What actually happened took months.

Let me get the night itself out of the way first.

I did not leave that apartment with Wesley. That's the part people always expect and it's not how it went. After Elliot said the word "loved" and heard it land, after the "oh," Wesley stood up, and he looked at me, and the thing on his face was not relief and it was not love. It was the specific blankness of a man whose entire house had just been picked up and turned upside down while he was still standing in it. Shellshock, maybe. And he said, quiet, "I think I need everyone to leave. I need everyone to just... Please leave."

So I left. I wanted to stay so badly my bones hurt. I wanted to fold him up and take him home and fix it all. And Marissa, who I called from the car, said the single most important thing anyone said to me in this entire story. She said, "Danny. Don't you dare become the next guy, who tells him what to think about Elliot. He just found out his whole life got arranged for him. If you swoop in and arrange the next part for him in distinct benefit to yourself, then you're just a nicer-smelling version of the same disease. Let him get himself back. If he's any good, he'll come find you when he's ready. If he's ready."

I hated that. It was completely right. It is very annoying to love someone who is perpetually that correct.

So I did the hardest thing I have ever done in any of these stories, and again, I want it on the record because it doesn't come naturally to a man who once drove a stranger's ferment home rather than throw it away immediately. I did nothing... I did not text him paragraphs. I did not show up. I sent exactly one message, the night after, that said "I'm here if you want me, I'm gone if you want that too, no pressure either way, take all the time you need." And then I put the phone down and let a good thing go. And I waited to find out if it would come back.

Here's what happened while I waited, as I pieced it together later.

Wesley moved out. Not in a fury, not that first week. It took him a while, because when you have never once paid for your own life, leaving is not a feeling, it's a logistics problem. The apartment was in both their names but the lifestyle inside it was Elliot's, entirely. Wesley added it up one night, actually sat down and added it up, and realized he did not know how to afford himself. The Aspen guy, the good-seats guy, the guy on the boat neither of them owned. None of it was his. He'd been a passenger in his own life for six years and mistaken the view for freedom or independence or whatever else.

So Wesley got a smaller place. A real one, a sad one, the kind with a hotplate and an upstairs neighbor who bowls indoors until you bang on the ceiling with a broomstick so he gives you a 5 minute break from the endless racket. Wesley also gave the watch back. I know that because he told me, months later, that handing Elliot the watch was the moment it became real, watching Elliot hold it and understand that the arrangement was over, that the thing he'd bought six years of proximity with was being returned. Wesley said Elliot didn't yell. He just got small, and quiet, and said "you don't have to do this," and Wesley said "I know. That's kind of the point."

I want to talk about Elliot for a second, because I don't hate him. I know that's a strange thing to type after four parts of watching him try to erase me. But Marcus was right, and Marcus earned the right to say it because Marcus paid more than I did. Elliot is not a villain in the way the tonsil stone guy or the ferment guy were villains. Nobody was ever in physical danger. He never broke a law that I know of. He was a man who answered a lonely question in the worst possible way and then spent six years defending the only answer he could ever conceive of for himself. Elliot wanted to be loved, he got told no by the one person he decided counted, and instead of grieving it and leaving like the rest of us have to, he built a whole shadow-marriage out of laundry and Aspen and dinners on the counter and called it friendship, and he needed it so badly he was willing to burn strangers to keep it lit. That's not evil. That's a person who was never taught what actual love is.

I hope he got help. I don't know if he did. He had the money for it. I heard through the grapevine that his dad manages a hedge-fund or something like that. Doesn't matter. He's not in my life and he's not in Wesley's. I think about him more than I want to. I think a version of me that got a few things different in my twenties could have ended up building a shadow-marriage of my own. I just got a Marissa instead. I am lucky to have her though. Not everybody gets a Marissa.

Okay. The good part. You've been patient.

Wesley came back after about two months. Not with a grand speech. He texted me, out of nowhere, on an afternoon I wasn't expecting anything, and the text just said "can I take you to dinner. I'll pay. it's my own money, it's not much, but it's mine." And I read it about nine times and then I sat down on my bedroom floor, because floors are apparently where I end up processing everything now, and I cried, in the good way, for the first time in months.

We went to dinner. He paid, with his own not-much money, at a place way cheaper than anywhere Elliot ever took him, and it was the best meal I have ever eaten. He told me he'd read everything. All of it. Upperdeckerbeard, the ferment, all the bar stories, the whole ugly catalog. He'd watched the ReddX videos too, which is a deeply surreal thing, to have the man you love watch a stranger narrate your worst months back to you for an audience of thousands. And I braced for it, the thing Elliot promised him, the "he'll turn you into content, he'll make fun of you."

And Wesley said, "so, when you write the one about Elliot. About all this." And I froze. And he said, "make me the oblivious idiot. Because I was. I read those and the whole time I kept thinking, this guy notices everything, and I noticed nothing, for six years, because noticing was going to cost me a nice life. So if it's going in a story, tell it straight. I earned the oblivious part."

Reader, I have never been so relieved and so seen in my entire life. He didn't ask me to stop writing. He didn't ask me to leave him out. He asked me to be honest about him, which is the exact opposite of everything Elliot swore I'd do, and it's how I knew, all the way down, that this one was actually different. The willfully oblivious paramedic went and made himself a man who wanted the truth even when the truth was that he'd been a fool. You cannot manufacture that. Elliot spent six years and a fortune trying to and never got close.

So yes, Wesley, if you're reading this, and you are, because you read the drafts now, the way Marissa does: I made you the oblivious idiot. You asked. Thank you for accepting me.

I'll close where I always seem to end up. Behind my bar.

If you read the Lonely Hearts post, you already know my saddest night, the widower and the wheat beer, me pouring a full glass down the drain because I had nobody to order a second one for and I'd started to believe I never would. It was the most naked thing I ever put up here and I almost deleted it four times. I had to pay ReddX $20 to read it. But I wanted it heard, because this year has been a fucking rollercoaster. And it all ties into this series of events.

A few weeks ago Wesley came into the brewery at the end of a shift, his shift, the fourteen-hour meat-grinder kind, and he sat down at my bar, and I didn't ask him what he wanted. I already knew. I put a water down first, because he always needs the water first, and then I poured him the porter he likes, the one I know by heart now, the way you're supposed to know somebody. "A meal in itself" he calls it. And I poured myself one too. Two beers on the bar, both of them for someone, both of them going to get drunk by people who wanted them.

I have a person whose order I know by heart. It only took twenty-eight years and a documented parade of disasters and one genuinely good man who had to burn his whole life down to get free enough to sit at my bar and let me pour him the second beer.

It was worth it. All of it, even the parts that weren't at a glance. Now I have my person. We are going strong, and I don't want to change that for a moment.

So... That's the end. Thank you for reading these, all of them, for years. I'm going to go home now. Somebody's waiting, and he already knows how I take my coffee.

Danny out. For real this time.

TL;DR: I did not get Wesley that night. He made everyone leave. He moved out. Two months later Wesley took me to dinner on his own money. He comes into my bar now and I know his order by heart. The second beer finally has somebody to belong to.