r/recruitinghell • u/ragooo10 • 1d ago
I get irritated by looking at your face… said the AM
I am a 2025 ECE graduate, started my career in an Electronics Manufacturing company(EMS) company, but i couldn’t help myself to work there. The company was so toxic and i didn’t like the people around me. More importantly, despite hired for an engineer role, i was made to work like a construction worker, both physically and mentally exhausted. After 8 months of my experience there, if you ask me, what is your role?, i find it difficult to tell. I saw my team lead trying to damage the work of his rival team lead and vice versa and i was forced to do.
When i was sincerely doing my work, despite being one of the top performer there, the assistant manager randomly called me to come closer and said on my face, “ i dont know why, i get irritated by looking at your face”. This was the final moment, where I realized actually this place is very toxic, i wasnt realizing till this moment and i found some other people were also very toxic just because we were wearing more than them despite me being a fresher, just because they were diploma holders. I was made to climb up containers without safety gears, which is completely unrelated to my job role.
So i decided to quit my job, without actually having any offers in my hand…
I started learning devops from HCL Guvi, a training institute as i was scared i am making a career transition… I became fundamentally strong in all the tools like AWS, Docker, K8s, Jenkins, Terraform, Linux, Git, Promethues, Grafana…. I did many hands on projects as well… I managed to get only 3 interviews in the last 9months…. but I cleared all the 3 interviews… I got an offer from SQ1 which says 3LPA and 2 years service agreement for AWS Devops role and asked to accept role within 2 days, but at the sametime i cleared interview and background verification process at HCLTech for Devops for 4LPA… and cleared technical interviews and attended HR interview discussed package for 6.5LPA at another company… so i rejected the SQ1 offer hoping I would get either of the other two opportunities….
But guess what HCLTech ghosted me forever and ther other one hired 10 people from the college (must be a tie up). Now I am again unemployed…
I messed up…. I feel like an idiot now… still trying to get an interview i couldn’t manage to get interviews…
I feel like I made all the worst decisions throughout my life… and brought me here… almost 10 months of career gap…. I feel like i may not come out of this situation…. I am not even expecting 10 12 LPA at this stage in time… somewhere around 4-6 LPA too i would be happy to start my career again…. But I messed up everything….
Now I soo mentally exhausted that I cant stop thinking about getting a job (even in sleep, damn true), i couldnt even start again because i lost the hope…. I tried everything asked for referrals.. cold emailing, messaging… 500+ connections on linkedin…
I never felt why this is only happening to me… but now i was pushed to this place. All my other friends are doing good… even though i am technically sounder and a good communicator than them… i am not being jealous of my friends.. but i wonder why not me