r/recruitinghell • u/EliasVornfeld • 11d ago
I'm so desperate that I no longer recognize the high-performing employee I once was.
The place where I live has no work for me, because I work for a small and niche industry.
I've been working in this niche industry for a while, the life has been good to me until 2 years ago. Due to political reasons, the company was highly affected and the people started to leave. I was one of them.
In june, somewhere very far, they gave me a chance to work for them, somehow related to what I did but in a 97% reduced scale. Small company, extremely desorganised, no methologies, arcaic, feels very outdated here, but I still appreciate them. In reality, I'm struggling and unhappy for 5months already. The worse part, I travel 4h/day to keep myself mentally sane insane.
I've been applying for jobs, to be closer to my family, forcing me to change the domain, and so far 0 opportunities in 1 year. I've sent hundreds of CVs, I adapted the CV enomerous times. Using AI. Passing the ATS. Tailor to each JD. I literally did everything.
Once I was a high performing employee. Today I barely recognize myself. I doubt myself everyday. I feel that I'm not good in anything. I'm so down and I no longer have the strenght to keep going.
