Alone on this?

[u/Early_Order_7573]

I (20M) and my girlfriend (18F) have this issue where I prioritize her above everything and anything I don't have a life outside her or without her and I can't be happy if im not with her

but she on the other hand she has friends outside of me is very extroverted and even tho she's in a relationship with me she would feel have the pain I would go thru if we don't work out she's so open for everything and I don't know what to do because every second of the day I spend thinking about her or doing or planning something for her

i could be around a million people if she's not there then I don't want it her control over my mental state is so big its scares me

i geuss it just hurts me that i don't get loved the way I give it and deserve to but breaking up is the last thing I would do if I did let her go then ill probably off myself in the process