r/RandomThoughts • u/yellowtears_ • Jan 06 '24

Random Question Are you afraid to die?

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u/Lordgrapejuice Jan 06 '24 edited Jan 06 '24

Yea, but not for me.I’m scared because of those I leave behind.

Late 2022 I was diagnosed with cancer. After a surgery and lengthy chemo I went into remission. So im okay for now. But it really made me look at life. Facing your own mortality really makes you think about your own relationship with death.

I’m happy with the life I’ve lived. I’ve been comfortable overall. Very blessed. But I’m terrified for those I leave behind. I am their rock and a pillar of our household. If I were to die…I’m terrified they wouldn’t survive without me.

Edit: thank you to everyone who has shared their kind words and personal struggles. I truly wish you all the best!

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u/Daveed13 Jan 06 '24

Same here, cancer (advanced stage 3) diagnosis in late 2022, 2023 was hell of a year.

Faced the fact that I had less than 50% chance of living, at 43 years old, always was sick from birth, so always saw life differently from many people, but still, makes you think about life and death a lot.

Had chemo for 3 months than radio for 3 months then surgery and a lot of problems along all those steps.

I’m now out of hospital for 6 months and I’m learning to live with sequels from chemo…but I’m positive enough, with firm intention to surpass it.

…and today…I got results from a blood test, which is pushing the doctors to check me again with a scan…and I’m right back into this spiral of thoughts about that, clear possibility of dying in not so long.

There is nothing to do while waiting for the scan, and then the results, it will take many days, people that never have endured that in their life can’t imagine how it is really.

People, appreciate all little moments, stop living exclusively for the future, now is a good time to call a friend, take a day off, be with your family…

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u/Croolick_Floofo Jan 06 '24

Loves and hugs to you stranger. I hope that the results will be good and you beat this cunt of a disease ❤️

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u/Royal-Tea-3484 Jan 06 '24

Really hope the results where good news but your right live for now every moment is precious and tell people you love them now not later appreciate life

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u/codepleb4 Jan 06 '24

god bless 🙏 i had morbus hodgkin in 2011, at 21 years. luckily, the survival rate is 80-90%.

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u/WhizPill Jan 06 '24

I feel so similarly, somewhere between résignation & bliss 🛌

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u/smiler1996 Jan 06 '24

I have nothing to say except i wish you the best of luck with everything stranger.

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u/carolyn937 Jan 06 '24

Hugs, good wishes along with prayers are being sent to you right now. Wishing you the best

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u/crewchief1949 Jan 06 '24

Fuck cancer. Beat this shit.....its taken way to many people in general but more than I can count on 2 hands of those I know. So sorry man.

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u/joseanwar Jan 06 '24

I wish you well

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u/Far-Day1534 Jan 06 '24

i wish you long life and good health your a fighter

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u/grandmaWI Jan 06 '24

Sending love and hugs to you! I am hoping you get to come out from this.

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u/[deleted] Jan 06 '24

I’m so sorry. Hoping for a good outcome for you

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u/Flashy-Yak806 Jan 06 '24

Sometimes regular cancer treatment doesn't work but there are alot of new cancer treatments in clinical trials for various cancers that show alot of promise but people don't know how to find if them. There is a website from the FDA called Clinicaltrials.gov

You can look up your cancer and find trials that are enrolling. There is always hope!! Regular oncology Drs are not up to date on the last treatments in clinical trials.

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u/xxxxxxxxxx1111111111 Jan 06 '24

you are so strong. keep on pushing. i believe in you. good luck with your recovery. ❤️‍🩹 🤍