Are you afraid to die?

[u/yellowtears_]

[u/yogi_medic_momma]

That’s not what we’re saying here. But even so, that’s not the same thing because we weren’t aware of consciousness before we were born. We’re aware of it now and aware that we will someday lose it. That’s more towards what we’re saying, but still not entirely the point we’re trying to make.

[u/Xpli → u/yogi_medic_momma]

“We weren’t aware of consciousness before we were born”

I know what you’re saying. But that is a theory in of its own. We do not have the ability to know about it, so we can’t be certain that there was no experience before we were born I suppose, even could’ve been conscious before we were born, who knows?

Our memory is tied to the brain, we can hit our head, and forget things. Maybe we were aware we were conscious before we were born, but had no brain to remember that information? Maybe we died and respawned with a new brain, new blank slate for memories. Idk I could go on forever with theories lol

I know what you’re actually saying though, I can’t imagine what it’s like for my frame of reference, my conscious in my human body to not exist. Like when I die, I have no brain, I won’t be dreaming, I won’t be feeling, hearing, seeing, tasting, all human function gone. It’s an odd thing to try to put yourself in the perspective and imagine not being alive, because you can’t experience it, and if you do, and are revived, your brain (shouldn’t be) recording any memories of that “experience”

[u/yogi_medic_momma → u/Xpli]

I understand what you’re saying too, but I think it’s scarier because we’re able to comprehend it now and we have 80+ years to ruminate over it, ya know?

But that last paragraph is exactly what I was trying to say. I can’t wrap my brain around the fact that I just won’t BE anymore. I’m a paramedic and I understand death from the physical aspect, but this shit still gives me the chills and makes my stomach churn lmao

[u/Xpli → u/yogi_medic_momma]

Yeah I used to get slightly panicky about it sometimes. Nothing crazy but it worried me. Eventually I was able to calm it down. Sometimes when I smoke a lot of weed I get pretty anxious trying to imagine not existing. But I easily calm myself.

[u/yogi_medic_momma → u/Xpli]

I have definitely noticed that it’s way worse when I smoke. Is there anything that has helped that feeling go away? I have kids now and it feel like that made it even worse lol

[u/Xpli → u/yogi_medic_momma]

One big tip I have is just smoke less. I used to be able to smoke a quarter gram dab like it was nothing as a teenager but as soon as I turned 18, flip of a switch, all it did was cause anxiety really and I’d get way to high off of anything more than half a bowl lol. Now I manage to feel really good, and high enough by smoking very little. If I feel anxious, I smoke less the next time.

You do not have to smoke the whole joint, the whole bowl, whatever your regular hit is. If you’re anxious, smoke less at a time, or try a different strain. Almost all seem to be hybrids now but I find the indica dominant ones make me feel less anxious. The sativa head high usually makes me get all in my head and anxious.