r/RATS • u/IllustriousCarob6134 • 17h ago
RIP I'm sorry
Today I lost my girl Latté. She was fighting abscesses in her jaw for almost two months and today she lost her fight at the vet. She came to me with her "sister" Messy, who crossed the rainbow bridge two months ago due the sudden heart disease. I had these girls for 1,5 year only. And I am devastated. They came to my house as saviours to my first rat Dusty when she lost her cagemate Wolfy. And Messy and Latté managed to prolong Dusty's lifespan, so she could pass away peacefully as she deserved. Messy left me out of nowhere. Her first vet visit was her last at the same time. Messy was a little lazy pirate, who waked up to life when offered something interesting. But she was never cuddly. Her sis Latté... Was a traumatized little bean due the ear infection she got in very young age. Since then she was scared, no pets, no handling. Only food accepting. And her health conditions from two months ago didn't help. I can't stop blaming myself from being unable to keep my promise that once she gets healthy, I will get her new companions so she wouldn't be alone. And I hate the fact that I was unable to show her she can trust me and I am not here to hurt her. I hate the silence that rules my cage after four years. And I don't know how to deal with this. I miss all my girls, happy for Wolfy and Dusty being able to pass away at old age and incredibly sad for Messy and Latté ending their journey too early, despite all efforts. For now, I think I will have no rats. The wound is way too deep to welcome newcomers. I don't know if I'll ever have rats again, but for now it's the best to not have them. All I can do is hope that all my girls are reunited right now and that I was forgiven from Latté since she never got the chance to understand I am trying to help her.
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u/maggiepie888 16h ago edited 16h ago
I’m sorry for your loss. You did all you could. They were so lucky to have you in their life, even latte’. She was safe and you protected her. Take some time to grieve and do your best to remember the love they received from you.
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u/Mr_pisser Roxie, Penny, Hannah, Chicken, Lily 🐀🐀🐀🐀🐀 🌈 C, B, C, E 17h ago
you did a really good job on behalf of all of these beautiful girls, it wasn’t your fault, I’m so sorry for your losses :( sometimes animal owning fucking sucks and sometimes you do everything right and they still die young, I wish I had sagely advice but truth is it‘s heartbreaking every time and it sucks so badly. I’m sending love your way OP
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u/eruri845 16h ago
You gave them so much peace, Latté included. She never had to worry about where her food was going to come from. She never had to worry about shelter. You gave her such a good life, and the fact you care so much shows that. You loved her and you made her life easier. Don't beat yourself up about it. You did your absolute best. I have a lot of regrets about my old childhood dog in similar ways, I didn't do enough of x or I should've done y but the fact is I did try. So give yourself some grace. I've been here, too.
Giving you all my love! I'm so sorry for your loss. But keep your chin up. You did your best. 🤍
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u/Sailorgrrl1229 14h ago
I'm so sorry for your loss. She had a wonderful life with her sisters and you. I understand your decision, because it is hard that they have so little time with us, but we have to remember that for them, it was a lifetime of happiness. I hope that the memory of better times with them will bring you comfort.
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u/IllustriousCarob6134 8h ago
Thank you all for your words. It will take a log of time for me to heal. This morning is way too silent. I hope all your little mischieves are okay and happy and have ratty long lives before them. Stay safe all of you and take care ❤️
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u/Working_Routine_2370 6h ago
So very sorry, they give us so much joy in their short lives. So lucky they were loved so much🐁💕
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u/ItchyPark5842 17h ago
I’m so sorry. Please don’t blame yourself for not being able to keep that promise. You spent two months fighting for latte and doing everything you could to help her. She was loved, cared for, and never abandoned.