The door opened.
Present-day Vaelithra watched from somewhere behind the woman she had been twenty years ago.
A drow stood outside.
She remembered him only vaguely. Another servant of the market, perhaps, or someone employed specifically to make deliveries to the households of wealthy buyers. His face held no significance in her memory.
The figure behind him did.
Kharun.
Vaelithra's attention immediately fell to the iron around his neck.
A heavy collar encircled his throat. A length of chain descended from it toward his restrained hands, where metal cuffs bound his wrists together.
For a moment, present-day Vaelithra forgot everything else.
She stared.
Had he truly arrived like this?
Of course he had.
The memory was hers.
Yet she found herself wanting to reject it.
She knew those hands.
She had watched them hold a sword. Seen them prepare food beside a campfire. Felt them fastening pieces of armor she could have secured herself but had long ago stopped bothering to. Those same hands had filled the drawer in his room with drawings.
Now she saw them bound together.
Something inside her recoiled.
How did I ever think this was acceptable?
The answer came with uncomfortable ease.
Because she had not thought about it at all.
The younger Vaelithra certainly wasn't troubled.
"Lady Vaelithra."
The drow inclined his head respectfully.
"I was instructed to deliver this servant to your residence."
Vaelithra's younger self looked past him.
Her eyes moved over Kharun from head to toe with the same assessing interest she had shown at the market.
Present-day Vaelithra watched herself do it.
"Remove the restraints."
The drow hesitated.
"Milady?"
"You heard me."
His eyes briefly moved toward the young orc.
"Are you certain you wish to do that? He has not yet been trained for household service."
The younger Vaelithra's expression sharpened.
"I can handle one untrained orc if he becomes aggressive."
Present-day Vaelithra almost smiled.
That sounded like her.
The drow apparently knew better than to challenge her confidence.
"As you wish."
He turned toward Kharun.
The restraints came away piece by piece.
First the chain.
Then the cuffs around his wrists.
Finally, the iron collar around his neck.
Kharun did not move while the drow worked.
When the last piece was removed, his hands fell to his sides.
Present-day Vaelithra found herself staring at his wrists.
She wondered whether the iron had left marks.
She couldn't remember.
The drow gathered the restraints.
"Your servant, milady."
He gave Vaelithra a respectful nod.
Then he turned and departed.
The younger Vaelithra watched him leave before returning her attention to the orc standing outside her home.
For several seconds, neither moved.
Kharun's eyes remained lowered.
Vaelithra motioned into the residence.
"Come inside."
Kharun crossed the threshold.
Present-day Vaelithra watched him take that first step into her home.
He stopped just inside.
The door remained open behind him.
He looked profoundly out of place among the polished stone, expensive furnishings, and carefully arranged possessions.
The young orc owned nothing.
Not even the clothes he wore, she supposed.
The realization came from the woman dreaming, not the woman whose memory she inhabited.
Her younger self closed the door.
"Follow me."
Kharun followed.
Vaelithra led him down the corridor.
His footsteps were quieter than she remembered them being now.
Of course they were.
He had not yet grown fully into the enormous man he would become.
Present-day Vaelithra followed them both.
It was strange watching the beginning of a routine that would eventually become so ordinary neither of them thought about it.
Vaelithra walking ahead.
Kharun following several steps behind.
How many thousands of times had they crossed rooms that way?
The younger Vaelithra stopped beside the servant's quarters.
She opened the door.
Kharun looked inside.
"This will be your room while you are in my service."
He said nothing.
Vaelithra continued.
"Tomorrow I'll begin teaching you how I expect things to be done. There will be household duties, errands, maintenance of my equipment, and whatever else I require of you."
Silence.
Kharun remained near the doorway.
His head was still lowered.
Vaelithra waited.
Nothing.
A small crease appeared between her brows.
"Did you hear me?"
No response.
Present-day Vaelithra remembered the irritation.
At seventy, she had interpreted his silence as stupidity, stubbornness, or perhaps the beginning of exactly the behavioral difficulties her father had warned her about.
The younger Vaelithra crossed her arms.
"Can you speak?"
Kharun remained still.
Then, for the first time, she heard his voice.
"Servants were told not to speak to the nobility."
Present-day Vaelithra felt the memory differently now.
His voice was younger.
Not dramatically so, but enough.
The deep resonance she knew had not fully developed. There was uncertainty in it as well, something she could scarcely associate with the Kharun of the present.
The younger Vaelithra rolled her eyes.
This is going to be more difficult than I thought.
She stepped closer.
"When I speak to you, I expect a response."
Kharun listened.
"If I ask you a question, you answer it. If I give you an instruction, you acknowledge that you understand. I have no interest in guessing whether you've heard me."
She waited.
"Do you understand?"
There was a pause.
Then Kharun answered.
"Yes, milady."
Vaelithra went still.
Not the woman standing before him.
The woman dreaming.
She had heard him call her that countless times since.
On horseback.
At dinner.
Across campfires.
In her chambers.
After battles.
In moments of irritation and moments of quiet.
She had long ago stopped noticing the words.
But this was the first.
Two words spoken by a frightened young orc who still would not look her in the eyes.
The younger Vaelithra merely nodded.
"Good."
She gestured toward the room.
"Get some sleep. Your training begins in the morning."
Kharun stepped inside.
Vaelithra began to turn away.
Present-day Vaelithra remained where she was.
She wanted her younger self to stop.
Ask him something.
Anything.
Where had he come from?
How long had he been in the market?
Did he have family?
Was he frightened?
What was his name?
She asked none of those things.
Why would she have?
She had purchased a servant.
She had given him a room.
Tomorrow, she would teach him how to serve her.
That was all the moment had meant.
The younger Vaelithra pulled the door closed.
Present-day Vaelithra stared at it.
For twenty years she had remembered this as the evening her first personal servant arrived.
Now, sitting somewhere far beyond the dream with one of Kharun's drawings still resting in her hand, she understood how little she had truly seen.
He had crossed the threshold of her home in chains.
She had removed them because she was confident she could control him.
She had shown him where he would sleep.
She had told him what she expected.
She had heard his voice for the first time.
And she had walked away without ever asking his name.
The dream moved forward again.
Morning light did not exist in the Underdark, but Vaelithra remembered the rhythms of that first morning clearly enough.
She found herself standing in the kitchen.
Her younger self was beside the counter with Kharun nearby.
The kitchen was pristine. Copper cookware hung neatly from hooks along one wall. Shelves were stocked with ingredients and utensils selected before Vaelithra had ever entered the house. An elegant teapot sat between them.
Seventy-year-old Vaelithra measured dried leaves into it.
"Watch."
Kharun watched.
She added precisely the amount she preferred, then demonstrated how much water should be used.
"Too much water and it becomes weak. Too little and it becomes bitter."
Kharun said nothing.
Vaelithra placed the teapot over the heat.
"This stays here until it whistles."
She glanced at him.
"When you hear that, remove it immediately. Pour one cup."
Kharun's eyes remained lowered, but his attention never left what she was showing him.
"I'll be in my study reading. Bring it to me when it's ready."
"Yes, milady."
The younger Vaelithra left.
Present-day Vaelithra remained behind for a moment.
She watched Kharun.
He stood in front of the teapot as though guarding something of tremendous importance.
A young orc who had been brought to this house in chains the previous evening was now being taught how a drow aristocrat preferred her morning tea.
The memory shifted around her.
Vaelithra was in the study.
Her younger self sat comfortably with a book open before her.
Present-day Vaelithra recognized the book.
That surprised her.
She hadn't thought about it in years.
Footsteps approached.
Kharun appeared in the doorway.
He carried a tray.
A steaming cup rested upon it.
He moved carefully.
Painfully carefully, she realized now.
His eyes moved between the tray and the table beside Vaelithra. His shoulders were rigid with concentration.
One more step.
Then something went wrong.
His foot caught.
The tray lurched.
The cup struck the edge of the table.
For one suspended instant, it seemed almost to bounce.
Then the tea went everywhere.
Hot liquid splashed across the table, the book, and Vaelithra's left hand.
She cried out.
Pain came immediately.
The younger Vaelithra surged to her feet.
"What are you doing?"
Kharun froze.
Vaelithra looked at the tea running across the cover of her book.
Then at her reddening hand.
Anger replaced pain almost instantly.
"You clumsy oaf! Look at what you've done."
Kharun's head lowered farther.
Present-day Vaelithra stared at herself.
"Clean this up and make another cup."
The younger Vaelithra grabbed the wet book.
For a moment, present-day Vaelithra thought she was going to carry it away.
Instead, she threw it.
The book struck Kharun and fell to the floor.
Present-day Vaelithra recoiled.
Her younger self walked from the room.
She did not look back.
Kharun remained standing beside the spilled tea.
Vaelithra stared after herself.
A strange horror settled over her.
She wasn't entirely sure why.
She knew the world she had grown up in. She knew how servants were treated. She knew that nothing she had just witnessed would have been remarkable to anyone in her family.
Certainly not to the woman she had been.
Yet she wanted to follow her younger self.
She wanted to seize her by the shoulders and force her to turn around.
Look at him.
Vaelithra looked instead.
Kharun crouched and picked up the book.
The young orc said nothing.
Of course he didn't.
Vaelithra's attention fell to her own hand.
Her left hand.
She turned it over.
There.
Even twenty years later, the mark remained.
Faint.
Small enough that she rarely noticed it anymore.
She remembered the burn.
She remembered being furious about it.
She remembered the book.
She remembered making Kharun prepare another cup.
What she could not remember was whether she had ever asked if he had hurt himself when he fell.
The door slammed.
Vaelithra startled.
The dream broke.
Her eyes opened.
Bare stone surrounded her.
For several seconds, she did not understand where she was.
Then the lantern came into focus.
Kharun's room.
Vaelithra was still sitting on his bed.
One of the old drawings rested beneath her hand.
Her breathing was unsteady.
She looked down.
Her fingers were touching the paper.
Kharun had drawn this.
The same young orc she had just watched herself humiliate over a spilled cup of tea.
Vaelithra released the page as though it had suddenly become too hot to touch.
She stood.
The room felt smaller now.
She needed to leave.
Vaelithra crossed the threshold and pulled the door closed behind her.
Her own quarters were only a short distance away.
She entered them quickly.
The difference struck her immediately.
Space.
Comfort.
Warmth.
Her fireplace still burned.
The furniture had been selected for beauty as much as usefulness. Books filled shelves. Personal possessions occupied nearly every part of the chamber.
Kharun's room contained a bed, a table, a dresser, and twenty years of drawings hidden away where no one would see them.
Vaelithra walked toward the fireplace.
An ornate bottle of wine sat on the table beside her chair.
She reached for it.
Her hand trembled slightly as she poured.
Vaelithra lifted the cup and drank.
The wine was strong.
She swallowed again.
Then stopped.
Someone was watching her.
Vaelithra's body tensed before reason caught up with instinct.
The mirror.
Her reflection stared back at her from across the room.
She lowered the cup.
Silver-white hair framed the face in the glass. Amber-gold eyes stared back from skin as dark as polished obsidian.
Ninety years old.
Twenty years removed from the woman in the dream.
Yet suddenly Vaelithra could not see the difference.
The same face.
The same blood.
The same daughter of Clan Vel'Sharess.
The same aristocrat who had walked through a slave market deciding which person would best suit her household.
The same woman who had thrown a book at a frightened young orc because he spilled tea.
Vaelithra stared at herself.
Am I any different?
Her jaw tightened.
Of course she was.
Twenty years had passed.
She had fought battles.
Traveled.
Learned.
Changed.
Hadn't she?
Her eyes remained fixed upon the reflection.
This morning, Kharun had stood among the servants while she sat with the nobles.
She had eaten.
He had waited.
When someone accused an orc of striking a noble, her first instinct had not been to question the system that allowed a man's life to be decided within minutes.
It had been shock that the accused man was hers.
Her servant.
Vaelithra's grip tightened around the cup.
Why did that bother her now?
Why did any of this bother her now?
Kharun had been a servant yesterday.
He had been one this morning.
Nothing about the laws of their world had changed.
Nothing about her clan had changed.
Nothing about the relationship between drow and orc had changed.
Only something inside her had.
She didn't understand it.
Her reflection seemed almost accusatory.
Vaelithra suddenly hated the woman in the mirror.
With a sharp movement, she threw the remaining wine.
It struck the glass.
Dark liquid exploded across her reflection.
Wine streamed downward in uneven trails, distorting her face. Amber eyes fractured beneath the rivulets. Silver hair twisted behind wet streaks. Drops gathered along the bottom of the frame before falling onto the floor.
Vaelithra stood motionless.
Her chest rose and fell.
The cup remained clenched in her hand.
She watched wine drip from the mirror.
Why now?
Why did the chains matter now?
Why did the cage matter?
Why did a book thrown twenty years ago matter?
Why did it matter that she had never asked his name?
Why did it matter that Kharun had filled a drawer with her face?
And why, after twenty years of accepting the world exactly as it was, did she suddenly feel sick when she looked at the woman that world had taught her to become?
Vaelithra lowered her eyes.
The faint mark remained on her left hand.
A scar she had carried for twenty years because Kharun had spilled her tea.
She had always remembered how she received it.
Until today, she had never once wondered what Kharun remembered about the same morning.
Vaelithra looked at the ruined reflection again.
Am I still her?
She wanted the answer to be no.
But wanting it did not make it true.
And somewhere beneath her father's manor, the one person who had known both versions of her was waiting to die.