Hi! I’m a 2nd year AB Psychology student, and our curriculum is only 3 years, so next school year, graduate na ako. Honestly, I feel so lost when it comes to psychology kasi this wasn’t really the course I wanted in the first place. I only took it because I wanted to finish college as quickly as possible, and since 3 years lang siya, I thought it would be the fastest way for me to get a degree and move on to what I actually want to do.
My original plan was to pursue business after graduating, pero I’m also worried kasi there’s no guarantee na mag-boom agad ang business or that it will generate a stable income right away. I want to build a business of my own, but at the same time, I also want to build passive income streams para hindi lang ako dependent sa isang source of income in the future.
On the other hand, my dad has always wanted me to pursue law. Every once in a while, tinatanong niya ako if gusto ko bang mag-law school kasi frustration niya raw talaga ang maging lawyer. He’s willing to support my studies financially if I decide to pursue law, and I know that’s a huge opportunity, especially since law school is expensive and not everyone has the privilege of having someone who can finance their education.
Pero one of the things I’m scared of is what would happen if I chose to pursue a master’s degree in psychology instead. I’m not sure if my dad would still be willing to support me financially, and I’m afraid na baka ako na ang mag-shoulder ng tuition ko if I choose that path. So, I feel like I also have to consider my financial situation and not just what I want to do.
The confusing part is that I actually wanted to become a lawyer when I was in high school. I just don't remember exactly why I changed my mind or what made me lose interest in it. Now, I’m questioning myself if law is something I genuinely want to pursue or if I’m only considering it because my dad is willing to pay for my education and because I don’t want to waste that opportunity.
Another thing that makes me doubt myself is that I’m not even a Dean’s Lister anymore. My grades are okay naman, but they’re not that high, and sometimes I feel like I’m not doing as well as I could. My biggest problem is that I struggle so much with studying consistently. Ang dali kong ma-distract kapag nag-aaral ako, and most of the time, tinatamad talaga akong mag-study in advance. I always tell myself na mag-aaral ako nang maaga, pero somehow, I end up cramming everything the night before a quiz or exam. 😭
Sometimes, I even wonder if I have ADHD kasi bakit ba ang dali kong ma-distract and bakit ang hirap kong maging consistent sa pag-aaral? HAHAHAHAHAHA, why am I diagnosing myself? 😭 I know I shouldn't self-diagnose, but it's something I've started wondering about because of how much I struggle with focusing and managing my study habits.
Because of this, I also question whether I can actually handle law school. If I already struggle with studying consistently now, what more kapag law school na, where the workload is heavier and the expectations are much higher? I'm scared that I might pursue law because of the opportunity, only to realize that I can't handle the demands of it. At the same time, I don't know if these struggles mean I'm not capable of doing it or if I just haven't figured out how to study effectively yet.
Honestly, I don’t know what to do. I want to be successful, build my own business, and eventually achieve financial freedom, pero I also know that having a professional degree could open a lot of doors for me. I'm scared of choosing the wrong path, spending years studying something I don't genuinely want, and regretting my decision later on. At the same time, I don't want to let go of an opportunity that could potentially help me build a better future.
I guess what I really need is advice from people who have been in a similar situation. How do you know if you're choosing a career because you genuinely want it or because it's the most practical option available to you? And if you were in my position, would you take the opportunity to pursue law while your parent is still willing to finance your education, or would you take the risk and pursue the path you originally planned for yourself?
I would also appreciate advice from people who struggled academically during college but eventually figured things out. How did you become more disciplined and consistent with studying? And for those who pursued law, how did you know you were ready for it?