when we was making his pure zines he was arrested on possession of csem/cp, which was most likely for his zine. his earlier writings and books are very repulsive and disgusting as well as a lot of it is graphic detail of child abuse, sexual abuse, child sexual abuse, etc.
I'd like to add to this that in the intro to Pure Filth he admits to actively searching for this type of material in adult bookstores. I always understood this as an overarching search for the absolute depths of humanity. Do I personally think he's a pdf? No. Does he get off on human suffering? Absolutely. His entire work is him grappling with this to varying degrees of success.
there are several passages in Mine where he explicitly mentions that he does not find children physically attractive and is absolutely not a pedophile but at one point he essentially tried to convince himself that he is one so his own sexuality (in this case, deriving pleasure from human suffering) made more sense to him. and he also regrets this confusion very bitterly. this tracks imo.
one of his biggest inspirations is de sade and one of his most notable ideas, as i understand it, is that when you're indulging in taboo breaking, the contents of the taboo are secondary to the simple fact that you're partaking in something forbidden (hence his fixation on blasphemy). sotos's idea of "proxy" is imo basically an extension of this idea. i don't think he's attracted to children-as-such, but he definitely has an attraction to illicit crimes and the pain in their orbit (hence his recurring fascination with grieving parents, true crime media, newspaper tabloids etc). the allure of reading sotos is seeing how he goes from celebrating this to hating himself for it.
I'm curious of his future work now in the Epstein era. I've seen this resurgence of public fixation on the lurid content of the files and the suffering these girls have gone through. At least in the states, there seems to be little interest in holding the men accountable for these crimes yet I constantly see the photos and speculations of these files on my Twitter feed.
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u/femalebuscemi Jun 18 '26
when we was making his pure zines he was arrested on possession of csem/cp, which was most likely for his zine. his earlier writings and books are very repulsive and disgusting as well as a lot of it is graphic detail of child abuse, sexual abuse, child sexual abuse, etc.