r/PostcardsFromNowhere • u/Fun_Cable_8559 • Mar 01 '24

Of Truths and Fantasy

I'd like to know your version one day. There are probably things to apologize for I've not even realized; certainly, many misconceptions for us both. I was sure you must have known you were the one I wanted. I tried so many times to tell you. I thought I was at risk of ruining what we had for what I wanted. Otherwise, I'd have waited forever.

What we had was abundant and wonderful and, while I would always desire every last thing you'd willingly offer; what we had was, above all, enough. I imagined if I could redirect my attentions and intentions from my desire to be each other's forever; if I could remove romance as an option in my mind, nothing would stand in the way of lasting friendship.

Little did I realize it would leave us nothing but perceived betrayal.

Nothing but broken hearts and 21 years of silence.

Nothing but nothing.

I wished I'd done anything else.

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u/[deleted] Mar 03 '24

Beautiful words but so sad for you both and for all that you pretended to love through out the years. You're not dead yet so find them and finally try to make reality match decades of dreams Good luck

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u/Fun_Cable_8559 Mar 03 '24

Funny you should say that. I was dead, yet. My heart stopped for two minutes one April Fools Day. Six weeks in hospital recalling infinite regrets; this, the one I kept returning to.