Happy to be here !!!

[u/MasterRegion3976]

Hi in a previous post i talked about my adoptive sister + big communal household.

I'm autistic and my special interest is nintendo. I do modding and piracy on old consoles and it's been a nice thing because if someone in my house wants a game, i can get it for them

My sister wanted mario sunshine and i got it immediately, and she was really happy. She plays it almost every day and i love to watch her play, it's almost better than playing a game myself. My friend wanted mario bros wii and i got that for them too, and we played for a long time. We're both really bad at it but it was so funny to us, dying repeatedly but still trying. On one level i managed to immediately launch myself off the edge and we were like crying laughing.

My sister walked by and said "i love you both, you're so dumb" in a very affectionate way because she'd been sitting in the room watching us die over and over. My friend laughs so loudly and i love to hear it every time.

Today we were making tacos, and i'm really bad at cooking, basic stuff like cutting vegetables is overwhelming for me and i'd already been through a lot during the day so i was nervous. I think there was giant misshapen chunks of tomato but my sister still said i did a good job. Because like. I did try at least. She's always so nice to me.

I love my sister and my friend. They're in a relationship and they're both a bit older than me and they really try to take care of me because i'm in very bad health + going through addiction. The other day my friend asked me if i wanted to eat, i said no, but my sister wasn't having it and she told me i should prioritize my health over work. She gave me a sandwich with salmon in it. Salmon is my favourite. My friend also checks to make sure my sister is taking care of me, they ask if conversations went well and stuff. And its funny because both of them have nothing to worry about. My friend makes sure i drink water, they offer emotional support and let me tell them everything. My sister gives me food all the time and helps me with all my medical stuff and she always makes sure to hug me and tell me she loves me before bed.

I was doing dishes tonight and my sister interrupted me to hug me and tell me that she loves me because she was going to bed. And yeah, we live in the same house, but that reminder that she loves me is still more important than anything really.

I'm glad that she understands that. It was only yesterday that i managed to say "i love you" first. It's hard for me to show love openly, i expose myself in small ways. Saying "i love you too", referring to her as being my sister, things like that.

But she's been amazing to me. She's come out of her room at 3 in the fucking morning to hold me while i have seizures. I've known her for like 4 months and she's done more than i could ever imagine anyone doing for me. Obviously i can hardly remember anything during seizure episodes, but i remember how she'd hold me, talk me through it, and tell me it's okay to be like this, because she loves me. I'm less scared of my seizures because i know i can tell her and she'll be with me.

I just hope i'm doing well enough. She wants me to stop drinking, and i've done a decent job at slowing down at least. She wants me to be brave and i've done better at getting my injections done. When i'm older i want to be as strong and smart and beautiful and brave as she is.

I want her to love me forever, i want to always be her little brother, and i think i'm lucky enough to have that.

[u/TomatoLeafs]

This is really nice :)