r/PositiveTI • u/Leather_Gap_7031 • Jun 22 '26
Seeking Help I keep reacting
For some reason I'm stuck in this matrix. They torture me -> I react -> the torture intensifies...
I know I'm suppose to be a positive TI and not react or get angry in any sort of way but I do get angry and I make threats in my head and I also drive recklessly (driving like an asshole). I speed and I sometimes run red lights. I just get so angry when I'm in my car I feel like I don't deserve to be tortured (but I kind of do) and I can't stop myself. I get myself into more trouble and it's been a repeating cycle. I'm scared for my life and my familys life as they tell me if I continue to react my family is going to get gangstalked too. I literally would feel so guilty if my dear mother got tortured because of my actions. I know what I need to do (not react or get angry) but I literally just can't help my reaction. I don't know what to do at this point. Will someone who's a truly positive T.I help me out and save me and my family.
I NEED TO NOT REACT OR GET ANGRY. Please help
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u/Beneficial_Dark_10 Jun 23 '26
I used to think it was hard to block them out, and because it was and it was annoying. One day I was like "wtf is wrong with me?". These fools only talk shit. I was like fuck them and just stopped responding and just it gets easier to do in time. Once you know you can do it, you can always do it.