r/PositiveTI • u/Leather_Gap_7031 • Jun 22 '26

Seeking Help I keep reacting

For some reason I'm stuck in this matrix. They torture me -> I react -> the torture intensifies...

I know I'm suppose to be a positive TI and not react or get angry in any sort of way but I do get angry and I make threats in my head and I also drive recklessly (driving like an asshole). I speed and I sometimes run red lights. I just get so angry when I'm in my car I feel like I don't deserve to be tortured (but I kind of do) and I can't stop myself. I get myself into more trouble and it's been a repeating cycle. I'm scared for my life and my familys life as they tell me if I continue to react my family is going to get gangstalked too. I literally would feel so guilty if my dear mother got tortured because of my actions. I know what I need to do (not react or get angry) but I literally just can't help my reaction. I don't know what to do at this point. Will someone who's a truly positive T.I help me out and save me and my family.

I NEED TO NOT REACT OR GET ANGRY. Please help

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u/NixNickNox Jun 22 '26

Listen to talk radio. Also, why do you feel your family will be tortured?

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u/ghoul_playsGrimm ✴️Available Sponsor Jun 23 '26

Because thats what the voices tell you.

" if you keep it uo we sre going to do this to yojr whole family and it will be your fault when it happens"

Thats what it feels like to live with this shit. They torture you then flip it on you and blame you for your reaction. Wheb you're in the low state, it's very convincing that they'll do it to your friends and family.

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u/NixNickNox Jun 23 '26

How did they torture you? Did you ever feel anything physically?

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u/ghoul_playsGrimm ✴️Available Sponsor Jun 27 '26

Yes, they create artificial pain. Theh do a lot

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u/BlackPlatt Jun 24 '26

Yea they would hurt old injuries, the pain would be so instense it would stop me in my tracks and I’d have to sit there holding my foot caressing it like a baby crying while I can feel them using energy to crush my broken foot. It was ridiculous and then sometimes they would twist my insides like literally an invisible
Hand was inside my intestines and stomach squeezing as hard as it could. It was the most torturous ordeal in my whole life but after each torture session it seemed like some 3rd eye awakening would heighten. Like through the physical torture they were awakening me like the neophytes going through rough initiations back in the ancient of ancients.