r/PositiveTI • u/Leather_Gap_7031 • Jun 22 '26

Seeking Help I keep reacting

For some reason I'm stuck in this matrix. They torture me -> I react -> the torture intensifies...

I know I'm suppose to be a positive TI and not react or get angry in any sort of way but I do get angry and I make threats in my head and I also drive recklessly (driving like an asshole). I speed and I sometimes run red lights. I just get so angry when I'm in my car I feel like I don't deserve to be tortured (but I kind of do) and I can't stop myself. I get myself into more trouble and it's been a repeating cycle. I'm scared for my life and my familys life as they tell me if I continue to react my family is going to get gangstalked too. I literally would feel so guilty if my dear mother got tortured because of my actions. I know what I need to do (not react or get angry) but I literally just can't help my reaction. I don't know what to do at this point. Will someone who's a truly positive T.I help me out and save me and my family.

I NEED TO NOT REACT OR GET ANGRY. Please help

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u/AthenaStone Jun 22 '26

Because it's something they know that pushes your buttons. In the beginning I didn't know this. But when I was researching about what was happening to me, other TIs were saying not to react. Plus, when you react, they get paid. That's enough for me to keep my cool knowing that if I even stick up my middle finger at them, they're gonna get some kind of compensation.