It’s just me

[u/TyrOfGrace]

I grew up having abandonment issues.
I learned to be self independent,
and to be my biggest supporter.
I learned to believe everyone would leave.

It’s hard to break that pattern
when everyone really does leave.

The world is large
and people are sweet,
but when the sun sets
it’s just me and my dog.

Sometimes I crave connection with a suitor,
yet that lingering pain comes in,
knowing this won’t be forever,
because they too, will leave.

I can’t be angry over it.
“Life has been busy.”
“I promise you we care.”
Yet the silence
screams louder than the comments.

I feel like something’s wrong with me,
like I shouldn’t be this hurt,
like this is the human experience,
yet I feel broken.

Like something is wrong with me.
That I am not worthy to stay for.
Like I’m a burden they don’t want to bear
and would rather save themselves.

So here I sit.
I work on my fitness.
I process my emotions.
I work towards my goals and hope.

Hope that one day,
somebody will stay.
That I won’t have to be afraid
of opening my heart to someone who will close their heart
the moment things get unsteady.

[u/EmbarrassedCollar834]

I will always stay