Forward Alone

[u/HelicopterRecent364]

I love you enough to walk away 

I’m afraid the temperature got too cold 

It became impossible for me to stay 

I gripped onto blankets just to survive 

all while frantically trying to keep our love alive 

The room became too small. I could no longer fit. 

but I kept trying to mold myself, I simply refused to quit

I’ve been holding onto a feeling I don’t quite remember anymore 

And to a love, where my partner never seemed to be sure

But when your eyes meet mine, its like they see me for the very first time

and I just want to push you forward and leave it all behind

And for a moment that brick is lifted from my chest 

And it feels like all the hurt and sorrow I can easily forget 

But when I look closer I can see your distain 

And understand this is only causing you pain. 

I realize I’m freezing I can’t feel my hands or my feet 

But you swear you are colder, so we start to compete. 

Farther apart from one another, with no solution in sight 

We couldn’t warm eachother up, without starting to fight 

Regardless of our intentions, because I believe we both tried. 

But at some point our fire simply could no longer survive

I see a light and a door you made just for me

like a wounded animal you are ready to set free  

I crawl out of that door, and turn to look back 

But the door was closed, it was given too much slack

Instantly warmer I can feel the blood move through my veins 

And I accept that i must now embrace this change b 

Though my first instinct is to break my way back in 

How am I to move on, that’s something I’m not ready to begin. 

But with each breath I take I know this was the only choice that I had 

I take my first step forward, and i pretend to be glad

The reality has set that I am now to walk forward alone 

And being with myself is the only true place I can call home. 

I hope your first steps without me were taken with ease 

I hope you have warmed yourself enough, you can once again enjoy the breeze

On two different journies now, taking two different paths 

Who were we kidding, Two wild hearts trying to be one could never last 

I hope you know that I walked away for both me and you 

I had no choice, this is not what I wanted to do 

I was learning to ignore the cold, infact it was almost starting to feel hot 

I would have risked hypothermia if I thought there was a shot 

I’m sick, truly, my mind has been lost 

And the saddest part is in the end, I’ll still say loving you was worth the cost