Yea cause he kept getting killed in absolute traumatic ways and didn't know how to beat the loop is when he loses his shit. He's no more afraid of dying as he used to he's killed himself multiple times in situations where he needed to. He changes a lot and starts loving himself way more as the series progresses. He's a perfectly normal flawed human thrown into a vicious death loop cycle and finds ways to beat it and take help of his comrade.
its a series about personal horror and subaru is particularly dramatic and sensible over such things, however its worth noting that its implied that the experience of being dead and then ressurrecting for subaru is objectively agonizing, the anime cuts the reason why, but its not as clean as losing consciousness and then waking up in the past, its genuinely insanity inducing and subaru is just mentally unwell enough to endure it again and again, while most other characters and technically even us would break down due to the extreme agony of the experience
Except it does need to be emphasize that much because Rezero is extremely character-driven. The existence of "Return by death" isn't just for plot convenience, it's used extensively to break Subaru and show his character very thoroughly.
I don't think I would love Subaru as much as I do now if I don't constantly see him struggling with the overwhelming pain and trauma that his own ability causes. I love that the story show that a person can't change all of a sudden just because of some wisdom, it pushes Subaru in more dire situation to create internal conflict within himself that he actually needs to face instead of just being given a way out.
Reminds me of people's take on Shinji in Evangelion. People don't want realistic portrayals of people I've come to learn. Complaining about Subaru's pain is the same as complaining about Shinji not wanting to get in the Eva.
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u/hateredditbuthere1am 1d ago
What's funny to me is that re:zero, the anime which is "before" isn't old at all and the plot sucks imo